Exposure Therapy

A figurative light shines on me (courtesy of Pink Floyd, and the Wall Done), no matter I live on the dark side of the moon comfortably numb like another brick in the wall, and rarely present thyself stark naked sans emotionally.

The metier viz modus operandi of writing (poetry seems to edge ahead of other structures) allows, enables and provides with utmost exhilaration, infatuation, rumination, et cetera an opportunity to test (dis)comfort zones.

Hence carefree foray induces loosing oppressive repressed unvented xanax albatross drugged gewgaws, jettisoned (via Jetson propelled Segway) means producing resplendent unfettered x2c alleviating damned ghouls jinxing my potential.

I became habituated, insulated, jackknifed with non-healthy, destructive behavior cultivated detrimental habits disallowing natural maturation of body, mind, and spirit, which this middle aged mwm now more fervently revisits, remonstrates, and recapitulates when attempting to explain to thyself or another, how bing figuratively tethered to the apron strings o' me late mum promulgated, narrated, and licensed to avast quantity of active listeners, the self made parent trap (albeit synonymous with an invisible umbilical cord that well nigh strangled satisfactory quality of life.

Thus culled from me lately (countless decades when within fledgling offspring, the progeny evince metamorphosis that display heavenly lottery phenomenal tinder phase linkedin DNA when processes of puberty per purring prestidigitation when mine deus darling daughters developed into divine dames) instilled, jolted, kickstarted personal quest to broach me interpersonal/ social comfort zones.

The presence of generalized anxiety (with attendant debilitating panic attacks) damned, foiled, highjacked journey to experience ordinary sensate human bonding never took place.

I copiously deprived, emotionally fleeced, gamely hocked innumerable joyous kissably leavening male natural ordinary processes qua ramping sundry transitions ushering vital wings yodeling zen attainment. emotional, physical, social discoveries visa vis via blockaded, deprived, forfeited, hamstrung inoculated je nais sais quois electric kool aid acid test disallowing, barring, depressing, forsaking growing Homo Sapiens trajectory toward autonomy free self destructive hermetically sealed reign.

Otherwise, thru avoidance behavior, clamped down eponymous flapping gums, this now middle aged baby boomer believes he cheated himself, injuriously jarred kidnapped legendary manifold noble savage traits ushering vital willpower yawping zealous adulthood.

Said physiological, integral, hormonal, germinal, fantastical, external, developmental, capitalone entourage fumbled mine kempf outlook predicated unanimously withheld Mortal Kombat from finagled grim-faced hoodlums, whence thine smarting, roiling, quivering psyche broke LivingSocial will power to remain stay'n alive with an assist from the ghosts of the Discotheque genre musicians albeit BeeGees.

Hence avast capitalone dishabille fracas (silent) heralded jimmying lackluster neurosis surrendering StarWars shield, essentially via nixed invisible IdentityGuard, undermined re: self defeatedly favorable growth, when thy prepubescent self firmly believed he hermetically sealed, guarded, buffered, himself against nasty, meanly lampooning, cruelly brutal bullies when in truth he merely annihilated boobytrapped, bolloxed against learning to deal with dangerous enfilades fired, and essentially a uselessly futile coping mechanism.

Quest diagnostic codified by yours truly incorporates initiating, kibitzing, and making odious quirkiness stamping utterly worthless yawping axed cowardliness.

Courageousness employed grappling ingeniously kickstarting my nifty operation quintessentially rallying strength to utter verbal warbling, especially when espying a guy or gal donned with dreadlocks.

Inexplicable to myself why a plethora of persons (constituting various generations) attire themselves with the lengthy process to braid, maintain, and wear follicles in such a fashion most attribute to Rastafarians.

No matter what the reason or rhyme (whether with or without sense and sensibility, yet inculcated with pride without prejudice), a fascination with curiosity asper men, women, and/or children sporting a headful sprouting knotted ropy plaits sets the impetus sans this non establishmentarian chap to inquire what influenced him/her to impress the trademark dreadlocks.

Each person usually offered little objection asper what influenced such a predilection, and what an individual history lesson willingly shared with this inquisitive primate.

Upon conniving, daring, egging, et cetera this quintessentially respectable son, the unsuspecting gal or guy ruminating about some purchase, I nonchalantly assay, foray, sashay...and issue a positive comment about their snake like (vi a vis Gorgon) confection of locked tresses.

Most interaction with persons previously unbeknownst to me launch into a harried styled and swiftly tailored explanation.

Poetic and/or prosaic concoctions, confections, coiled connotations configuring confusing confabulations representative of mine unsettled psychological state, which (akin to purging – without the unpleasant and permanent side affect of foul breath nor severe tissue scarring from the Gastric acid, gastric juice or stomach acid, (which qualifies as a digestive fluid formed in the stomach and is composed of hydrochloric acid (HCl), potassium chloride (KCl) and sodium chloride (NaCl)).

Oft times a roiling sensation felt indicative of a prospective creative outburst ready to erupt without any sense nor sensibility, neither pridefulness, though prejudice against victorious vanquished wicked yoked zealousness toward unhealthy behaviours linkedin with a nada so good and plenti outlook.