Sometimes it is very difficult to explain to people how you truly feel,you get those that would criticize and judge you,you get those that would try and make their situation more difficult than yours,you get those who would listen just to get joy out of knowing you are in suffering. So who do you tell? Seeking professional help can be really difficult. All you need sometimes is someone who would listen to you completely,not judge you,but rather understand and give you advice,which of course would be your choice to take or not. At the end of the day,you mainly have yourself to blame for poor decisions and wrong choices,but there's never a problem without a solution,you can overcome anything and almost everything life throws at you,for as long as you stand on your own to feet and face the world as a true being rather than complaining and weeping over days,weeks,months and years of self pity! You have to see the world and face reality each and every day. It's pointless living on hopes and dreams if you always going to sit back and moan around. It's up to you. Pick yourself up and conquer the world.