Random ripped out Chapter.. past pain..

Two wrongs don't make a right, you are my poisonous liquid running through my veins. It doesn't feel good all the time but you never seem to feel it after a few doses. Do you smell that? I hate you.. and I can't believe your mom laid down and made time to make you. No, im just playing. I'm not sure anymore, are you my secret . You are my love and my hearts desire. My heart pumps but it beats unsteady. Can you feel it when you place your hand upon my chest. I can't, tell me what can you do. I'm your inner slave. because I'm unknown, and I am your nothing.. times x. 

Oh,I'm not done, don't tell me you are. Kill the noise. I don't hear you all the time. I wish I could, you just don't let me. I just don't know. I wish you could hear me but I pressed the mute button somehow and forgot where I stashed the remote. Can you read lips? Oh it's hard for you? Try to understand. Can you do that for me. Oh you don't want to, It's okay I didn't plan on a yes on that. Am I weird to you, do you hate me.. shut up because if you do, you the reason I created me. I was good before, now I'm bad as ***, my mom got so much to say she think it's Buck. But it is all of y'all, don't you ***ing get it, but it's mainly that and I'll admit it. I'm just speaking truth and this counseling thing may not ever get through. But I'll try it out I have did this before but the didn't work. I'm done talking because that's all I do, and I lay down the facts because I care for you, and sometimes I say *** it, and I won't trip because you'll run through my mind like the bad venom I sip..