Believing the lies Falling for the deceit Knowing what your doing is wrong But listening to the false truths Beginning to hate myself to core filling myself to the maximum capacity of more hatred, pain, and evil realizing that I'm in too deep and I'll drown if I don't grab the rope knowing that there will always be HOPE and I'm willing to dust myself and try again leaving the BS behind taking a new route to prosper in life and overcome deceit
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Phenomenal Paris says: This touch home.. I love it |
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justformine says: yaaas girl yassss ^.^ You snapped!! |
OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY JEvans1194
Files To My Sanity
Thumping heartbeats drowned by wounded swords of pain Cutting them into pieces leaving them in pools of blood Lawless Love unsolved and sunburned Trumpets sound to the freedom of the unbroken Pain I once felt I can't even fathom the thought Enclosed is the poetry to my soul the only portal you'll have to hear me once I'm gone  |
Where I'm FromI’m from broken vessels I’m from blood splattered walls that can’t be removed I’m from an unchained heart Filled with nothing but hope I’m from lawlessness That only GOD can remove I’m from gang fights, gunshots, and remorse Although anything can be restored I’m from a place where hearing “I love you†is rare but “I’ll die about mine†Is the calmest thing you’ll hear I’m from a place where the warmest heart can be turned cold Where the money, sex, and drugs are the only golden tickets to salvation I am from the roots of bitterness formed by a black woman I’m from the unspoken words of a neglected soul That can’t be retold I’m from the burden of a mangled spirit I’m from a Jermaine that is not here to tell his truths But a Veronica that will console me with all her love I’m from a journey that I didnâ... |
Unspoken HeartThe pain erupts my soul Tears flowing out of control Driving me insane Picturing you here But knowing it can't be Lost in my emotions Nothing can truly be spoken Your the missing piece to this puzzle I have to move on despite the struggle No longer submitting to your lies I'm a wonderful creation in God's eyes Done with going for the bull My I'm done u blew it I'm on to bigger and better It's about my unborn and facing all obstacles I'm a Queen and I'll go for nothing less I'll stand on my own than be broken, heart cold and a mess. |
Unspoken TruthsHave you trained yourself to speak when only spoken to? Your not a prisoner Nor a slave I say how I feel and mean what I say Hey I'm no black panther but yet it seems as though the black generation is dwindling when will you see the unspoken truth their telling you to do the las challenge did they tell you the method was used as a weapon to break us as slaves open your eyes and stop being corrupt it's not the white man is Satan who lives in him don't be afraid as long as you have God your alright |
Brown AngelHis brown bronze skin Soft dreadlocks and I love to run my fingers thru them Brown blue eyes he's saved me so many times I've started to lose count it pains my Angel when I start not to care he looks over me when. God is busy with someone else I'll always believe that he is my Angel till I die he loves me and I love his soul even more my Angel gives me unconditional love forever more No wings needed I look into his eyes and see it all he's. My Angel and I'll never fall with him we will love and succeed |
Hope DisappearingNo goals,No hope, you given up so you just choose to smoke to get rid of the pain the racing thoughts drive you insane. Loveless feeling as though you have no heart dying to love but feel like you've been drained of it you wanna just say *** it So the dope hasn't become enough so you start to supplement with pills and that drank to get faded on a daily Will you ever have hope? I don't know but it's up to you too believe and dream cuz tell me is it with saying *** it or would you rather love yourself and others and discuss the issue homie stop having hope disappear then you'll see Crystal clear |
Broke HimI wondered for so long now I know es like you made it hard for me ***ed up my position now I got to fix what you hurt it's OK the mending will be determintal I still love him no matter what that will never be an ISSUE Cuz you lied to him and hurt his fragile heart but I'll be picking up the pieces and attaching the places you tore APART |
Best Love EverDevouring my mind Rupturing my souls clinging to my hand I feel as though I'm about to explode my sweetness all over his shaft dam near losing my grasp his tongue ran over my secret I don't know if I'm able to keep it |
UnfitHow can unfit mothers talk about the father's like come on Lil mama be real with yourself you know how he was before you opened your legs so don't get mad when you're with child and the guy you've been with for 2 years has only loaned you a 100 and you stay dishing out stacks when you get it together and stop being unfit for kids will love you more than just being Daddy's little ! |
Unconscious WarfareBattling with your mind while your body is on sleep mode I do it daily because I love to try to be in control of everything fighting the negative thoughts with positive May be a drain vivid horror stories replace the bloodshed with beautiful landmarks the Scrutiny of an unwanted abortion with sweetness of an apple pie can anyone help me I think not Lord I cry to you because this Warfare I'm having in this unconscious state and I may not win grab my hand as I drift back to this personal Warfare I'll close my eyes once more just as before and I know I'm ready to begin Because this time I'll WIN |