To keep myself from Falling...
To keep myself from falling,
I must write, I must release, this ugly
inner beast from choking the life from my emotions
I can't focus,
I'm possessed with the guilt of my transgressions,
I feel held down to bed, not able to even
stretch my legs....
Constantly thinking of an out,
But my mind refuse to show me the answers,
Guilt, and shame is what it's giving me
Screaming at me, taunting me with truths,
Reinforcing the clear fact of me being the very worst
enemy,
I'll ever come acr... |
I'm Sorry
I been the victim of this, numerous times, When did I start breaking hearts? When did I start being iniquitous? Turning malicious into a word, black and totally vicious... I'm a bi*ch and I get it! I've turned your world into a waiting pool, As I sat by watching you rot in it... I seen the flies of my lies swarming on top of you, I knew the truth of my deception would scorch you, Yet I kept it around watching untouched, as you burned to the ground
As wrong as I was, I would still conjure up the image of both our hearts, and swear to myself I was in love... You were like some unattainable paper containing multiple prescription drugs I was addicted, I mean you invaded all thoughts, All my cerebrum activity, involved thoughts of you with me... You were my escape, Another illusion I mistaken as some form of fate, I knew deep down that I will never be with you, But instead of stepping on the platform of real women hood, the little child inside promis... |
I am a poet
I am a poet
My thoughts shrink itself into letters,
symbolizing each of my words,
I make every meaning sing inside,
The tender curve,
Of my pen stroke
I invoke letters
To wet your emotions
Until you feel my agony!
Until you feel the sweltering fire,
bringing hell to my soul!
My alphabets shout out, when I'm in Danger
Of spinning in a way one can't control!
I word,
my words in thee most scrupulous care,
I am the Empress of my poetry,
I give it all I have,
And only then does my suffering
Dissipate, into my stanzas...
Only then, am I the God of my own universe,
and my mind is the creation of all answers
Only then does the radiation, flow inside my open veins,
killing away Fear's cancer...
Only then, am I able to savor
Life's moment,
Which is,
A huge amount of what ... |
My own Hell
My own Hell
I can never completely miss,
the suffering
Constant infliction of torment
That bundles me up as it's baby,
It lowers me in a fiery state of mind, where no one can save me...
I agonize over events I no longer can
Control,
Individuals that abandoned my circle
Especially the ones I once gave my
Earth 2...
Old friends voices, turning foreign
Understanding
Their separation, and envy
Was monopolized by a jealous ass...
Whom I would love to ***ing choke,
Ring her spirit from her traitorous
Little throat..
Hate sings a lullaby, loneliness rock me 2 bed...
fear hovers over me,
possessing me,
Uncontrollably,
levitating over sweaty
Sheets, until I cry myself into a restless sleep,
Because, I hungered for a love ocean deep,
And yes, my bait cau... |
The after noon sun
The afternoon sun
How many days have
I stared at my ceiling?
With sadness lining my pupils,
With hopelessness in my expression
And loneliness in my heart.
Held back tears shinning with regret and sorrow
Not exactly anticipating tomorrow.
But very much indeed,
tomorrow comes,
It is the beat of the risen sun,
the most beautiful creature out of all our sons.
We marvel, as his crystal hands gently
Stroke his wooden drum stick.
He's the next day,
A day of reminders,
Constant
Thoughts,
thoughts of perfect guys i never
get,
Places i never dared went
And awesome friends that not really in my "real" circle,
Holding tight to its reputation time flys quickly by,
That perfect scenario,I held in my head,the night before, never comes,
He never comes!
He just never do.
Sigh!
Week by weeeeeeee... |
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