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the chosen one

came in to my life unexpected

but I've always known you to be a blessing

I got down every night finished with a prayer

always filled with love never anger

There will always be hard times

but I know he will be there to dry all my tears

faith is hard to come by

but I never wonder why

he takes the wheel

there is nothing left to fear

he chose me

but I wonder should I be

I was his other half

but instead of him I got to live this life

I have a purpose

bigger than anyone else knows

Even though we never got to meet in person

I promise to learn our life lesson

As long as I have you as my guardian angel

this was God's intention....

the ultimate priority

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the ultimate priority <3
by Cindy Renee Soto on Thursday, March 17, 2011 at 11:51pm

living from one day to the next...

the sound of a single footstep...

living this life trying to make the most of it...

but there is nothing but distractions...

the street lights...

even have a piece of me...

they decide when I go...

when I stay, or when to move with caution...

rule after rule...

not really sure of who I should be...

is there a right way and a wrong way...

no one knows, no one even recognizes my face...

I move along trying to catch their attention...

but I don't even recognize my own reflection...

I have become transparent...

it's like I'm gone, all empty...

Not sure what happened...

can hardly remember...

I see cuts and bruises...

and my body ...

Just Passed the Finish Line

when I look in his eye...

My body burns like fire...

he is the blue to my ocean...

he is the ripple that is never ending, continuous circles...

our skin touches...

he is the softest...

but the heat is rising...

and now we are sliding...

He warns me about commitment...

and about his prior engagements...

he scares easily...

but I know he really loves me...

he runs for a cause...

the number he wears serves a purpose...

one foot in front of the other...

he's gone fading in my rear view mirror...

he says he isn't lost...

he just knows what he can trust...

he needs to feel the track beneath his feet...

and at some point the finish line becomes a must...

the sound of the crowd...

dust flying behind him...

the sound of his heart beat throbbi...

Watching and Waiting

never in my life...

have I taken risks too afraid to take a chance...

you never know what's at the end of tunnel...

too afraid of the end to even begin to travel...

I don't want to lose my balance...

because I decided to live freely, careless...

what if I try that one thing...

that I always said I would never consider...

I live in a cage...

Always stuck in one place...

people don't get why I hold back...

always trying to avoid the "bad"...

I have been a good girl...

Always the perfect little angel...

Don't confuse my halo with sunlight...

It's always been there and fits just right...

Is this the right way to live...

wrapped up never to be found or looked at...

the perfect way to avoid any sort of attention...

yes this is perfection...

Four Kisses

Sitting up watching the cars pass through the window...

I can't sleep knowing I am here without you...

You always knew what to say...

Whether it was night or day...

I feel the warmth from when you breathe...

I can almost hear you speak...

Next to me you said everything was easier...

While you rested your head on my shoulder...

took my hand and let me feel the rhythm of your heartbeat...

you said it beats for you and no one but you..

there was nothing I wasn't willing to do...

swim across an ocean for you...

some people wish for diamonds...

I wish for your beautiful eyes...

some people wish for bright shiny cars...

I wish to be called yours...

if you needed me I would have been there in a hurry...

if you wanted me I would have given in easy...

you said no one fit in your arms bett...

misplaced

You once raised your voice...

that caused me to cry...

you brought me down...

I could feel your hands, as I drowned...

I may have let you in...

and you may think you left me broken...

but you must be mistaken...

I knew you would never be the one to get down on one knee and ask for my hand in marriage...

I may have looked imperfect...

but perfect will never come no matter how long you wait...

I once new a man...

who pledged his love for me...

I saw him in my home town...

he was all alone...

never found one better...

he looked at me like he used to, and c...

Uncertainty

laying across your chest...

I never miss a beat...

holding hands...

I never crave or miss...

when you look at me...

Love is all I see...

I could give it all to you...

if I knew forever would be me and you...

what is the meaning of this...

I am afraid there is no sense of direction...

I am just falling harder and harder

hoping I am not setting myself up for disaster...

You spin me around...

feeling light and dizzy seems as though all I am allowed...

Walking, running...

trying anything but I just keep falling....

With every moment spent...

I try to look further and further into the distance...

But can not be too optimistic...

I am filled with dozens of broken promises...

Door number one...

offers security...

Door number two...

...

the adventure of me and you

he takes my hand...

pulls me across the ocean...

he tells me of all the wonders of the sea...

while holding me tightly...

he is an observer...

of the world that surrounds us...

never misses a thing...

not even one dimple...

his eyes sparkle the color green...

while he shares his hopes and dreams...

how can I stand here with you...

and not be moved by you...

our meeting was lucky...

I never would have expected anything...

when you look into me...

I begin to freeze...

I am stuck in the moment...

but let's face it...

I wouldn't want to be anywhere...

but here...

I have a hard time speaking...

You approach the world so differently...

you take the time to see what has been misplaced...

and find a way to bring it into the light...<...

a while

One thing I need to say...

Before my dying day...

One thing I need to feel...

Before I am gone home free...

These days have been the best...

Not many people could attest...

But it's what I know...

What my heart rings true...

I never question myself...

I never doubt myself...

I trust in you...

I care for you...

Before I am left six feet under...

Please believe even in grave danger...

I know where my heart was...

And it's never been left in awe...

With you I fear,

I will never lose this feeling my dear...

Never wanted anything more...

Then to Yell you are mine...

Never been more proud of my choice...

It will be sure to bring great delight...

I have learned to be me,

Happily Cindy...<3

With that lesson ...

could have been

I am not sorry...

Why should I have to worry...

you came in expecting in the worst...

I am just trying to live up to it, ...

Your fear...

Is what let us fall...tear...

I wanted to be the one to call you dear...

But now all I have is a letter...

Saying I will make it, it wont matter...

Just as much as I did to you...

It's okay I will be strong...

It wont take long...

Before you will be out...

Without any doubt...

She will come...

someday...

Don't walk with dismay...

We just weren't meant to be...

luckily it only cost us a small fee...

you will leave me with a token...

nothing broken...

you could have had it all...

My heart, I thought be like snowfall...

Surrounds you, and leaves you with nothing but smiles...

all the while...

for all the miles...

Too bad we can't go back...