just love i guess

Quiet b4 da Storm

Floating on the sidewalk, trees rustling in the wind, scented flowers filling the air
There I am standing, listening watching. Crazy drivers fleeing
lights flashing.
There I am, music flowing in my ears to my mind. The light slowly fading away...
My shadow has gone on home. Rumbling walking feeling the wind flow through me.
There I am silent watching listening ghosting waiting. People rushing to no where, sky getting dark, the light is gone. Clouds coming in, then there it was the complete silence. There we stand waiting, every sound fades everything become blur for a moment life is in slow motion.
There the quiet we all been looking for that one moment you hear see everything clearly
Tilt my head back eyes closes as the breezy water falls, there not a care in the world raindrops after raindrop
there I am...quiet before the storm.

Shot 2 Light

Cant get it outta my head, i remember that day so well. was leaving the bathroom when the alarms were going off. was pulled down to the ground by my cousin

heard a man coming up the stairs, had to run had to get away. he yell after us as we ran down the hall. panting trying to get to safety.

Heard a click sound the pow....a scream something hit the floor.

Didnt look back than another POW!!!!

Felt a sharp pintch hit the ground as i screamed.

couldnt move just laid there eyes close.

heard the man disappear out of the building

my cousin screaming for help as he scrawl to me while holding his leg.

just laid there not moving an inch, could feel myself trying to.

doors opening teachers gasping

"kourtney!!!" mom screamed as she ran to me

in her arms could feel her shaking me telling me to open my eyes

for some reason i couldnt....i wanted to....i really wante...

Was it real or a nightmare (Halloween Special)

Leaning against the wall

hood up covering my eyes, hands in my pockets...keeping my breathing quiet and steady.

hearing my name being called in the distance

big house powers out...only light is the light from the full moon,

mother and her sister coming down the hall the floor creak each step they took

turned the corner they saw a dark hooded figure. mother saw the light shining on my sneakers, exhale "its just kay"

stood in front of me both of them asking me questions

why didn't i answer why did i disappear

aunt reach out her hand to touch me, jerked back when she felt a icy cold air coming off of my body.

the air got colder felt rumbling beneath them. i slowly raise my head eyes closed they gasp when they saw my icy blue fangs.

called my name again, eyes shot open all you could see is a bright blood red scaring at them smirking

jerk my hands out of my pocke...

tear daze

laying there....on the bed, hands behind my head staring up at the ceiling

not making a sound not moving just staring.

many things run through my mind.

Ignoring the knocks at my closed bedroom door. ignoring my name thats coming outta my mother's mouth.

i don't know why i didn't answer back, i know i open my mouth. but no sound came out.

just waited, don't know what i was waiting for but i just waited laid there in silence.

twilight came, got up off the bed had on skinny jeans a hoodie and sneakers. grabbed my keys and left outta my room.

was real quiet, heard mother calling after me. i turned and looked at her and walked out the house.

somehow i found myself downtown walking around in the rain.

trying to ignore the pain in me. was in a daze, could see the cars driving by.

people running to get out of the rain. hearing nothing but the sounds of my footsteps and tha ...

One Time

-A Smile ,

A Hand

A While

We Stand

- Unsure

Your Heart

Secure

A Start

- Two Hearts

One Beat

Too Smart

Too Meak

- One Bed

Two Sheets

The Med

Two Seats

- The Broken

Much Lust

Unspoke

No Trust

- Lost Love

Found Lies

Results Of

One Time

SoulChild's Rage

Controlling my rage.
As I unleash on the page.
Don't care about grammar.
As I'm bringing the hammer.
You think you're too cool for school.
3 kids two girls with no job or car.
Oh you're mcdonalds,
You're definitely going far.
Dancing and twerking,
with you butt all out.
Get upset when I guy walks up,
what's that all about.
Whatever do what you do,
But you got a son at the house.
Why is your mom taking care of him,
while your breasts are bouncing out of your blouse.
Why are you sitting there.
Taking care of what's not yours.
Yes it's your grandchild.
But it should be a privilege, not chores.
Why are grandparents,
Raising kids then their kids.
While does only partying,
Go through your head.
You laid down to make it.
So all the head aches you take it.
The bad habits you br...

Why tho?

why does the nerd
never get the girl
why are smarts
wasted on the world
why are bad guys
portrayed as good
why is a black guy
expected to be hood
why do people
act like stereotypes
why is sex
all the new hype
why do people
have double standards
why do good guys
only get trampled
why do girls
always complain
they want a good guy
but gosh he's too plain
all these thins
drive me insane
so i sit right here
thinking in my chair
and ask why

only one for me

you're the only for me
my future girl to be
the only girl
i'd ever give my life to see
the girl of my dreams
my future it seems
but like you
that future stays in my dreams
you don't see
what you've done to me
or the happy couple
that we could be
you live in a world
apart from mine
where good ones
are just far too kind
so with this
i express my regret
of that perfect girl
i'll never get

just love i guess

when i see you
you have this air
as if you're too important
and you just don't care
you're above the rest
impossible to approach
people don't understand
how people look at you
and are at your command
unreachable
too high
you're like the heavens.
you're above the sky.
unbelievable
how can a person be
so untouchable



seeing you
i'm mesmerized
talking to you
i'm hypnotized
gazed into your eyes
i'm lost for a day
touching your lips
nothing to say
we have no worries
we never fuss
forget the world
it's all about us
i need nothing else
as long as i have you
cause keep on loving
is all we'll do

First Thought of You

everytime i think of you
i get confused
i tell my self to go for it
what do i have to lose
you're what i want in a girl
you're not like the rest
if i had to rank you against them
you're easily the best
thinking of you
i wonder when
when will the thinking end
and the action begin
when can me and you be
and the games stop
when can i leave the barrel bottom
and finally touch the top