InTHEshadowz

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Diispaiir

I forgiive but dont forget

As liife go'z on ,

Ur eyez are opened to alot of thingz,

As a chiild u wouldve never seen,

As a grown young lady,

I see how criticism can be a miixture of hate,love,envy,

U can never know, whatz what truely,

Cause some ppl are good at beiing who they are..phony,

Explainationz can be better than miine,

But doez iit make it riight?,

Doez iit make it justiified?,

Hatiing to argue wiith ppl i love most,

Can create an empty space,fiilled wiith moss,

Therez tiimez where ii shut dwn, apologiize for my wrongz,

Leaviing iit at that,

Cause iif ii didnt ii'd be setting off a bomb,

Too tiired to contiinue on,

Im twisted around, made to be a fool ,

I guess other ppl can never be wrong,

Watz really the reason, that they are causiing harm?,

Do they take pleasure out of feeliing someonez less strong?,

Imperfect iin a differ...

Diispaiir

Should ii be consiidered the fool?

Or am ii the one thatz human?.

With every iinch of me ii feel ,

My musclez tiightened ,eyez gliistened,

Iin the shadowz ..

Such an understatement,

Iitz much deeper,

Ii feel liike iim siinking iin a pool,

Fiilled wiith black iink,

Iit fiillz my lungz..im chokiing,

Wiith no one to save me,

Seeiing iitz only riight, to feel thiis drowniing,

Iive fell for the last tiime,

Never wantiing to get back up,

Wantiing to fade iinto black ,

I dont want to love anymore,

Ii have nothiing but diisappointment to offer thiis world,

I crave to be alone ,

Wiith nothiing but my own miind for comfort,

Siilence iiz all ii have, wonderiing iiz there any hope to recover,

Wiill thiis all be somethiing to remember for wen ii get better?..

Lend a hand..

Far away iiz where ii dream to go,

A place where iim free of everythiing , free of the chaos iin my home,

Iim tiired of beiing the one whoz alwayz looked at as the villiian,

A swear here , a swear there.. Iim just so tiired, dont you'z get iit?,

Tiired of defending myself when iim the sweetest gurl u'd ever get to know,

Yet beiing unhappy makez me change my flow,

I dont wiish to hurt ppl wiith my wordz,

I dont take priide iin iit because ii know how bad iit can hurt,

Oh ,How badly wordz can hurt,

A siimple miistake and someone can endup iin a hearse,

U never know how a person can take iit,

So be very wiise wiith ur verbalz,and show compassiion,

Cause iin the end iit can come back to haunt u somethiing drastiic,

We're as fragiile,and can be broken easiily liike an elastiic,

As femalez we need more care,

Therez too many out here,

That are broken.. Need repaiir,

Diivided only by cla...

Natiive taiino'z

Latiin women,

We're fiilled wiith liife,so much flavor,

U say we're crazy , that we dress provokatiive ,

But to show skiin and be beautiiful iiz part of our incentiive,

Thatz part of us , even back then iin the tiime of the chriistopher columbus'z,

Respect our nature,

The language iin whiich u miight not understand,

Liike other miinoritiez, we are the soul of the land,

The land iin whiich our natiive ppl bled,

Our blood reakz through the soiil ,

Our ancestorz mariinated iit for us to step foot on,

To treat kiindly,

Even though some dont even thiink about thiis fact, ii thiink wiisely,

Iim a decendant of those u called wiild savagez,

We werent made to be tamed ,

Lust..

She lookz at me ,ii look at her..,

A smiile appeariing on her face,

One that could mean many thiingz,how could ii translate?,

In my miind ii undress her,my lust takiing me under,

Awakeniing thiis dark siide of me that was iin deep slumber,

A siide ii choose not to use because shez poiison to my beiing,

Knowiing ur not a gurl ii wont be "seeiing",

She doeznt care cuz all she needz iiz one niight iin ecstasy,

One niight of total release,

Then back iin the cage of darkness, to once agaiin fall asleep,

A humbled soul,loviing the siimple thiingz iin liife.. Thatz wat ii choose to call "me",

One niight standz are of the past,somethiing real iiz wat ii seek.. Wat ii need,

My temple iiz of the most sacred,so ii must protect iit from the wolvez who pass theiir tiime devouriing,

Never satiisfyiing theiir hunger,

Cause theiir soulz are on empty,who they bed iiz just a number,

Breaki...

Short yet sweet

Fiire iin my eyez when ii look at ur piicture,

Diisliike and love combiined iin a miixture,

Ii love u stiill and iit fustratez me because u left me alone,

Not thiinking wat iit could do to my heart,my soul,

1st tiime was a miistake ,2nd tiime iim a fool,

Repititiionz are the worst but ii was so lost iinto u,

Our tiime apart, i couldnt seem to forget,

Thatz how ii knew there was somethiin abt us that was so closely kniit,

I saught out to fiind u , to put my miind and heart at ease,

But for wat?, cause ii only ended up once agaiin hurtiing,

Feeliing diispleased ,

Stuck ponderiing, was iit really me?,

Or was iit her selfiish wayz ,

That made her fade,

Or was iit US , as a joiint effort ,the lack of patiience ..we just couldnt waiit..,

My smiile iiz fadiing.. Thiis cant be liife..

I dont know iif iitz the ciity or just wat iim goin through that stealz my smiilez,

I smiile to be kiind ,

But iit slowly fadez away liike the colorz from a sunset as iit turnz niight,

At tiimez ii feel my smiilez are type phony,

Cause ii force them out ,tryiing to be happy,

Although iit iznt diirected towardz anyone ,ii dnt want to let them iin personally,

I feel as iif no one can change anythiing , so ii stay quiiet and lonely,

The only tiime ii feel aliive at tiimez iiz when ii driink poiison or blacken my lungz ,

Poppiing a piill and gettiin so faded that ii act dumb,

It deeply hurtz me that ii notiice these thiingz,

Slowly reachiing towardz changiing,

I need to achiieve at somethiing before ii start fadiing,

Lettiing ppl ruiin who ii am,

When ii know that iitz all they want , ii should be standiing as tall as ii can,

Sociiety can be so cold,

But ii now know, the onez that really mak...

Paiint the world diifferently..

U cant keep me down,

My strength iz too profound,

Standiing my ground,

Feeliing thiis breeze throughout my body,

Learniing to manage wiithout haviin a signiificant other around,

Strong iin so many wayz,before ii couldnt notiice,

Alwayz lettiin ppl robb me of my confiidence,

Just cuz iim jobless,

Doeznt take away from my purpose,

Everythiing wiill come,and thiis "liife" told me "he" promiised,

Told me to maintaiin patiience,

Therez alwayz tiime for greatness,

Masteriin a forgotten source forgotten to man,

The common person couldnt possiibly understand,

All eyez wiill soon be on me,

An aliien,soon savior to thiis land,

A captaiin wiith my generalz at command,

My voiice,smoother than egyptiian sand,

Sliippin through my enemiiez handz,

Opposiin miindz wiill fall short to my planz,

Ii aiim to change,

Claspiin tonguez between my teeth,cuttiin...

The world iz cold..

Transformation can be at a slow pace,

But realiizin patience iiz needed each and every day ,

Iignorent ppl try to follow my pace,

But come up short so they look the other way,

Follow destructiion,

Leakiin hate from theiir veiinz,

Iin silence ii pray,

The world can be a hateful place,

Hatiin the next for theiir own short commiingz,

U are a product of wat u make urself,

Dont look dwn and laugh cuz otherz choose to seek help,

No not phony,not weak,not a faiilure,

I just choose to not hang around "everybody" else,

I kno wat my "needz"are,

So respect miinez & kno wen ur makiin a fool of urself,

Otherz wiill help u to achiieve iit and not giive 2 shiitz,

Egg u on to make miistakez,they love wen u fliip,

Kiind by nature but dont take advantage,

Kno iim cut from a diiff cloth thatz why some cant stand iit,

Tryiin to throw salt on my name,

My fut...

My love..

Forever my everything,

thatz what u were,

but everyone knowz ,love hurtz,

the pain seemz of the worst,

Why couldnt u love me the way i loved u,

was it the distance or was it wat ii did that distanced u,

My mind ,so stuck to u,

overwhelmin feeliinz of love & hate in a pool,

bleedin from my heart,

all over YOU,

all over us ,wat did we do?,

created a love that had meanin but no purpose,

or maybe it did & u just ignored it,

never understandin how much ii cared,

how much ii wanted u here,

wen i was young ii wasnt ready,

regardless of the feeliinz i had that were so heavy,

a young female confused in liife,

so tender & riipe,

lessonz to learn were clear iin siight,

my dwnfall was dangerous ,

so glad u werent here to see iit,

all alone, & ashame...


		The Immortal Wize says: written with so much passion, I love it! poems by this commentor Fleeting Moments Under A Pile Of Oppression Landing
		hymnagen says: You contradict yourself. This artistry you offer the world is no disappointment at all. Keep it coming poems by this commentor D.W.B. Bedeviled & Hopeless Black Voice
		Intheshadowz says: Thank u both, and ii do see my error, ii triied to go back poems by this commentor I forgiive but dont forget Truthh Another one for her..
		DallasCowgirl says: This is nice! I can feel your words.

Diispaiir

I forgiive but dont forget

Diispaiir

Lend a hand..

Natiive taiino'z

Lust..

Short yet sweet

My smiile iiz fadiing.. Thiis cant be liife..

Paiint the world diifferently..

The world iz cold..

My love..

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