There are dark moments
Moments of abysmal blackness
Black holes engaging me in torture
Vultures not waiting for my death
But pick & gnaw at my living form
My essence
Pre-eminent divinity
Seeking triune union
Mind, body & soul
I desire to emerge to grow
Become more than a lyricist show
Be more than a man with a flow
I write
So more people could better understand me and know
I am a simple minded man of compassion
Whatever I may feel at any given time
I immediately take action
Encompassed and enveloped by fear
I wipe the last dried tear
My cheek is still shaking
My beard has been drowned by my eyes sorrow
My skin is inflamed and swollen
Spirit crying for understanding and appreciation
I am not a vehicle that suffers immediate depreciation
Reciprocity is desired when I give my all
I do not ask for much
Just show me your totality as I bare mine
My mind is verbalized through prolific and never holographic texts
What I feel, I reveal in its most pure context.
For I desire my floating in space
To be momentarily taken or erased
I wish I could be suddenly placed
Into a beautiful and much better place
For my heart is broken
As are my bones and sinews
I pray someone hears my prayers
For I can no longer kneel at pews
Turn on the news
And you will see me
For I am you
Loneliness
Hatred
Anger
Resentment
I dream of dreams within dreams
That which when I awaken
I feel crazed and shaken
Spirit forcefully taken
Because at times
I wish I would remain asleep
For many dreams are better than my reality
Which have only led me to the brink of insanity
My writings of profanity
Are only a glimpse
Of the demons that are ramming me
Punching, slicing
Cutting and slapping
Face spit at while my hair is pulled
Seeking a divorce of my flesh and spirit
But the marriage is annulled
Put on hold
I continue to grow cold
Don’t wake me if 'my good' is but a dream
Any bad shown, then wake me from that nightmare
I fear
I am writing in my dream
And that everyone
Are nothing but projections
Like Inception
I seek for mental respite
Because I seek for self protection
No need for a serum injection
For I sleep and die
Die then awaken from my nap in Sheol
Gehenna has been waiting for me to return
It waits and yearns
For my flesh to wither & burn
Because from all of my life’s lessons
I still have so much to learn!
SkTzO