My Life #1

lost

Nobody

Nobody

Thats exactly what I have

Nothing

Is exactly how i feel

Sometimes you can give so much and have nothing left

The very one you ones you stuck by, has left

And now you are I alone

The confusion when reality hits that at the end of the day all you have is you

How ??????????????????????

Hurt is something no one every wants to get use

But I feel sometimes we are forces to accept pain, accept the hurt life throws us

Fear that no matter what you may go into, there a strong possiblity things just may not go the way it should

Some people allow you to place so much trust and faith in them , just to see all youve put in to it come crashing down right before your eyes

How do you deal

How do you stop the tears

How do you cope with the pain

How do you get over

Missing how you were before your first heartbreak

Realizing you have lost sight of yourself

Just to question yourself "WHO AM I"

Wheres my strength, Wheres my faith

Ive lost it all, trying to get something from someone else that I can give myself

Tired of starting over, thinking of all the failed attempts

Where to begin, when you are still damaged and hurting from...

Get Over You

You every just sit and wonder, "How can I start over"

Where do I began

How do I forget what I am going through, been through, simply how can i get through

Not really asking for much, just to be happy

But it's crazy, as the days go by my mind falls on him, then through out the day, it stays on him

Wish I can go back to the time before my first heart break

Music has always been my escape, but every song reminds me of what we had, and all I can think about what I did wrong

I constantly find myself, texting, calling,,, or should I say begging

Just wish I can move on, so tired of crying, tired of wishing and waiting on something that will never happen

All I want to simply do, get over you....

Damaged 15'

Sometimes I feel like what I'm really looking for doesn't exist

So use to being hurt, I honestly feel like being alone is what's best, honestly what would i miss

So mentally damaged, that my expectations are always bad

Ive been told that I love to hard, I think too much, and I'm over protective

In my opinion, alot of people fear "REAL"

I've put my heart through so much bull, that now I feel like its completely damaged

I'm DAMAGED

Ive allow so many people to bring me to that point, just to let me go

Failing to realize the pain of loving someone for them not to love you in return

Giving your all, better yet your last just to see this person happy

And despite all you do and have done, it never seems to be enough

Accepting their lies, yet you know the truth

Realizing that you will never be there only one

Feeling incomplete...

My Letter to Mr.Coleman...

Just A Thought *12/15/14

Forgetting to me isnt easy. The thought that someone hurt you or damaged your heart in some type of way tends to play over and over in my head. Living with the fear of being hurt, tends to damage a person mentally. Understanding that everyday will not always be happy, yet taking the bad making the best of it. But the thought of being happy, that thought of having peace. Will forever be on mind, until the pain cease, and I actually find peace....

Pissed Mode (12/8/2014)

It took me a whole year to realize what was really going on

Best believe lust can blind you, better yet suppose to be love can damage you for life

I found myself give, providing, sharing, caring, treating, catering, and pleasing, yet wasn't getting a thing in return

At the moment, hell I was so deep, I thought i was in love, but wasn't

I dont know and honestly till this day, I feel like a fool, I still find myself wanting to please, my heart takes over me, then I began to overdue

Realizing this mother ***er would give me a thang if i got down to my last, but it's crazy as soon as I get back up, I'm back at it again

Pleasing and Helping, like a damn Superman

I feel so ***ing stupid, yeah I've played a fool over and over again

But in life sometime you have to have to hit rock bottom to see who will really stick around till the end

"Your not making the moves I wann...

Reflection

Confusion

Being in love wit a person that's mentally confused about life and what they want, is a daily hassle

Weaken daily, emotional damaged trying to open up when they constatly throws up road blocks

The fear of being hurt again constantly plays within my mind, but scared to be alone has always been on my mind

Before we became officially I felt more from you, but now that we're official I barely get anything from you

At times I feel like your only attracted to the things I can do for you

You adore the way I make you feel, but at the same time, your still coping with your past, and has not yet fully healed

I've been commited to you even before you were mine, and now I feel like you not even ready for this type of commitment, and lately we've been wasting time

Something we can never get back

To be honestly, I think you are confused at where u wanna be And every since you admitted that your not ...