It sucks when im alone
In bed at home These late nights are a killer I know they say i should be realerTheres something that just holds me back Trynna keep my mind on these racks You always pop in there somewhere When i see you i just want to stareI hate myself for being this way I get butterflys everytime you say hey But i cant bring my self to itSometimes i wanna just say screw itAnd do itPour my heart out to you Let you know everything i say is trueWhats there to lose A friendship? Oh boohoo I should be the one to choose Ill take YOU shopling for some shoesAll that yOU been torough I can be there for you You just gotta let meMe see I just gotta tell you But i never will Im just keepin it real This is how i feel.
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hymnagen says: Fine capture of anxiety. Had me feeling on the edge for a minute,too |
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