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There are no words
To describe how I feel
My life fell apart
I was left all alone to heal
My father left me years ago
Leaving the three of us alone
Leaving my brother without a figure
And into pieces my heart was blown
My mother was in the kitchen
Silent tears flowing down her face
She prayed her silent little prayers
Hoping God would show her grace
My brother, scarred with pain
Tried to be tough for our sake
Our father hurt him so much
He spoke with anger and hate
One day things got really bad
He started making bad decisions
But you couldn't really blame him
He had so many of his reasons
I remember when I was nine
It was the worst summer of my life
I released some news to my family
That was life-changing that night
I had told them what my uncle did
They found it so unbelievably filthy
That night he was left without a family
I just felt so damn guilty
I felt so traumatized after that night
I felt so down and depressed
I didn't really show it much though
I had to do what was for the best
My mother put me in counseling
I wasn't really happy with that
But soon enough I talked my heart out
And then the old me, that was once lost, was back
Soon enough more things happened
My life was starting to spin wildly
My brother left, my mother weakened
There was no more happiness inside of me
I was torn apart, so deeply depressed
Sometimes I thought of ending it all
I felt so unimportant, so out of place
In the world, I just felt so small
Then it happened, my brother was locked up
Being honest, I felt relieved, but I also felt burnt
Sure, he caused me a life of hell
But he was my brother, my blood, and I loved him even if I was hurt
But then I realized, I will go through challenges all of my life
But that shouldn't make me want to be a wuss and flee
I should stand my ground and do what I do best
And what I do best is... BEING ME
