It’s an insane absurdity
To know ALL the adversity
That’s been purposely disturbingly perturbing me
But I must choose to not revert but perfectly have the feeling of worthlessly
Begin swervingly curving me
I know the strain and pain
Shouldn’t be concerning me
For Ive worked my ass
In the present and past disturbingly diverting adversity
Emotional contaminants consciously concerning me conversingly
Internally purposely hurting me
As I lightly recite nouns and verbs verbally dispersingly
Many days and nights
The pain transformed and morphed thoughts That were incessantly progressively worsening
Bravely brazenly speaking urgently
With fervent urgency flirtingly
Fictitious feelings worthlessly cursing me
Yet no longer hurting me
Because wordings dispersed no longer hurt me
As my soul has grown with urgency
For an emotional high commotional
insurgency
Many verses that hurt were selfdeafeatingly dispersed
To break to then make my sternum bleed burgundy
Looking retro introspectively concerningly
I’ve admittedly grown more devoted and committed
To not omit but admit gained wit discerningly
Stress in my chest that had me so vexed and perplexed
With a vacuous hole in my chest had me much more learning see
Fearsome tenacious fervency
Made me fight with my light
In the darkened night mercilessly
Although at times feeling pointless in existence quite worthlessly
I maintained as bruising and cuts I sustained
Through all the adversity
But which gave me a larger intellectual spectrum of creatively expressed diversity
Now rising to the surface
I take time to be serving me
Until the day I will be lyrically servicing
My adverse diversity dispersingly
I have grown and become much more artful in my artistry
Hence, I communicate and convey lyrical strays with forceful certainty
Utilizing linguistics now controlled
Through my biophysiological neuromuscular circuitry
Remaining insanely zany
I am no longer complaining of past strain I’ve spent time painting
Through my grammatically high radically impractical training
For they forged and carved an exterior solidly hard
You can not ignore or discard nor easily blow me off and disregard
I can easily proclaim our many names for we’ve lived in the torturous flame absurdly
No longer pain counting
None can be discounting
As I’m beautifully word compounding
And lyrically abounding artfully
Speaking honestly earnestly
I’m a metallurgic alchemical word wizard
Of great subject diversity
I have without a doubt of certainty
Have much more than certainly
Excreted the bulk of what used to be the worst of me
No longer doubting my apparent transparent skills nervously
I’ve dropped my insecure conservative wordings
‘Let go’ of erotic despotic despondency
Currently gave myself clemency
To spew past carnage I once harnessed
But abandoned cathartically
Carefully treading my path
Not arrogantly carelessly
Curbing communication for better ‘role model’ carpentry
Sclerotic soul hardening
Is apparently turning reversingly
And I feel more stable and capable
While dealing with the impalatable capably
I’m embedding divinity within myself
And move forward in progress unwaveringly
I in no way walk daily smiling all cheerfully
BUT DO hold near all whom I hold dear
No longer fearfully
Of nobody loving me sincerely endearingly
Aint nobody snickering, sneering or smearing me
Defamation of character is light years
From the tongue of those reading or hearing me
I am no longer in need to try to forcefully enforce
A Code Morse of remorse forcibly
Manic type imaginative machinations
Are humorous morbidly
Although I appear to remain alive mortally
I am far beyond insane abnormal
With no desire for societal normalcy
Enjoying my lone time as a recluse
I choose NOT TO make an excuse
For those who perceive me as anything less than normally
Life stabbings and circumstantial grabbings
Had me in split psyche absorbency
For I recognize the broken ties of humanities lies
That intertwine, entwine and creatively define the words I rhyme
Even if mere obscure absurdities
I know my creative word control
Will one day soon get me known and globally shown commercially
Because my ego and superconscious
Inform me that I am worthy
And am deservedly deservingly
And when my time arrives before my flesh withers and dies
As my spirit hovers and flies to the skies
I will make my mark and leave a legacy
Of a highly theatrical
Drastically radical word heresy
For my beautiful prodigy progeny
For the world and future generations
To witness and see eternally for all of
eternity
That Eric Lee was much more to see
Than just an absurdly creative commodity and social oddity
But too was a man of brilliant resilience
Whom spoke and lived uncommonly
Enjoying his life as a schizophrenic
Six personality anomaly
~ericlee~