So depressed
My actions just cause more stress But in the moment i dont care I just dont wanna be here I want to be left alone But my mind doest seem like homeIm so tired of this I dont know what to do always pissedAlways wanna feel numb Dont really care if i end up like a bumMy emotional state is so fragile I juat want someone to notice and help But i do this to my selfSo good at putting on these masks No one can master the taskOf understanding me My mom dont even see Not like she caresTheres only hate and regret here Lost relationshipNo one can salavage it Been tryin for yearsBut all shes hears Is the problemsComplanes, with no way to solve them Putting her stresses on me Its no wonder why i smoke this weed I messed my life up Put myself in this rut I wanna get out I really do i just dont know howAnd when i ask for help They tell me i got it by myselfNO NO I F****N DONTIf yall leave me to do this alone I wont come out alive Maby alive but just to survive Make beleive im so strong That bull is all wrong Im so weak Trying to save myself but im on the peak I want help so bad But i have these trust issues cause of my dad I hate myself I deseirve to go to hellFor how selfish i am Becoming just like "uncle sam" I wish i could be better No matter what with me its stormy weather Im just complaning with no solution Thought it would be better once i moved in I wish i could just die now My life serves no help I know people would be sad But their problems wpuld be erased off the pad Feel like i serve no puropse Nothing is what it looks like on the surface Hate how i look Try not to be but im always guna be a crook Now i done cryed all my teares Faced all these fears None of it matters tho Cause tomarrow when i wake up itll be the same old show