It's like a winter storm
Through the desert sand and as twisted as that sounds it's how I feel
Torn and confused
I don't know what's real
Do I love you
I don't think so
Well maybe I do
Some days I want you
Others I can't stand the sight of you
Sometimes I cringe at your touch
Then I miss you so much
Some days when we lay it feels like time flies
And some days I just wish you wouldn't even try
To be next to me
Get your hands off me
Today I feel your not my destiny
And as crazy as it seemed I dreamed about you
A man who would love me unconditionally
But now that your here I feel so differently
And most of the time it just makes me sad
To have a man better than I ever had
Yet I question the love that I have for you
My heart don't skip a beat when I'm next to you
I don't get chills when you touch me
But I know that I am so very lucky
Most women wish for man like you
But I don't know if I love you
Do I even know what true love is
Thoughts of past relationships lingers in my mind
Mentally and physically abused
The harsh reality of what I thought was true
A misrepresentation of what love is
And now it seems like I can't recognize real love
You cater to me
Making me happy is all you wanna do
Yet I sit here and wait
Waiting on the bad
Because this is like no love that I ever had
I'm haunted by
Relationships of the past
SoFloetic
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hymnagen says: This is gonna read like a "side-eye" comment, but I assure you it's not intended that way. You just made carrying emotional baggage beautiful. Some carry it around in trash bags, this is designed luggage LOL |
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hymnagen says: Sorry "designeR luggage" |
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