Cant Make Friends

I cant make friends because I am too busy dealing with those parts of me that I cant identify, and those parts that scary, and that I just dont understand. 

It is hard for me to respond to this you are saying because I am working through my own things through my words. What makes it worse is that I dont even understand what the words mean to even understand why you are so turned off by them. 

I dont know what Im supposed to be doing and I am trying my best or at least I think I am. 

Do you see my dilemma. So when I tell you that we are friends, we are friends and if my words are filled with hate or uncaring, just think about how I treat myself for it.