I hated having to do you like I did, but I was taught that a man lives by the words that he gives.
plus you did my foul!
shh! I probably made too much of it, but you were my brother and I never thought you would dis that,
for a part-time lover.
go figure! my ninja
things change!
I wanna pick up the phone, but the memory still stains, and your number has changed.
at least thats what I keep telling myself.
as broke as we was, I'm real
deep in this new found selfwealth,
stengy with apologies.
I remember the last text you sent. saying, "you probably won't answer, but I miss you! forgive me please!" And I didn't. I'll probably hate myself forever but my pride is all I'll need. Still your big brother until forever.....
Royale jones
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hymnagen says: You put into words much of what I been feeling for years. But time don't heal all wounds and some sh!t can't be fixed. Never an enemy but never again a friend. Nice capture. Peace |
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royale jones says: thank you! just glad some one can relate. |
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