Lost (In my feelings)

Feel like im in too deep , but don't wanna let go

Still confused about my past, really haven't had a official let go

But where I am and who Im with I wanna stay

For now Ive found my peace, and that smile that seem to have disappeared for a while, LOOKS LIKE ITS HERE TO STAY

But why do I still feel so lost, yet in love

My feelings are so biopolar, and my thoughts are all over the place

Dreams are getting married in a black dress, got me wondering, could I be making a mistake

But the feelings I have when he's around is so amazing and what we have I truly adore, until my past creeps back up, and Im confused once more

My past creeps up unexpected, and sometimes makes me feel sympathy..Then I start looking back wondering, whether or not my past still loves me... I even get to a point where I take 10 steps back, just to see, is it here  or there, until I getting to my breaking point and I realize I really dont know where I wanna be

So now I'm in a stage of confusion, I feel like I know where I wanna go and I know where i wanna be.... But is it the right decision for me.

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