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Instantaneous detection
Of a poor self imagined reflection
Hating what I see
Thus there is constant rejection
Working my way around the world
With violent acts of projection
Projecting my minds incapacities
Insecurities and their impurities
Spewing words of anger with great voracity
Having the gall & tenacity
To speak such hateful blasphemy
For that was the older version of me – the ancient person
Who was constantly staring into the mirror
Spitting & dispersing violent cursing
Complaining that my life was only worsening
The hatred of self
Created multiple personalities
To help shift the blame of shame
Onto the various other selves
Pointed the finger and placed the disgrace and the blame
Upon the poor human with a short birth given name
I hated
To be on this plane
And prayed God would have me dissipated
If not evaporated
But then I grew to recognize that I was highly blessed when created
He set me aside like the Sabbath day and had me consecrated
Then I was telepathically taught to Let God and “Let Goâ€
To just ride the storm and go with the flow
“Don’t fight what you don’t knowâ€!
I became a man of intellectual persuasion
And then on one darkened occasion
There was a demonic confrontation
Forcing itself into my mind, a diabolical invasion
For Satan instigated
With all his fury and hate
My new direction and path
And he made it his daily labor
To pour upon me His violent acts of wrath
And as he snickers & laughs
I brush the dirt off my shoulder
Lift up my body and continue to carry my cross, my bolder
And now that I’m many physical years and intellectually older
I have grown exponentially to be sublimely bolder and stronger
Breaking chains of weakness
Having no fear as I war with the warmonger!
And to make this rhyme a tad bit longer
I must admit
That I was only fully capable
To remain emotionally strong and stable
To somehow continue to be willing & able
To kill off my insecurities as Cain did Abel
By allowing myself, to trust and in God confide
For my soul nearly became rust
And I nearly many a time had died
But I was taught by faith and hope
To be more than willing to cope
Hold onto Gods elongated stretched forth spiritual rope.
Hold on
Hold, held and still clench “it†tightly
Continue praising my God daily & nightly
Even when crazy circumstances appear to be extremely painful and unsightly
I know He is there in my midst
Even when the devil whispers in my ear
That for God to love me, is quite unlikely
I allow my lungs to take in fresh air
Letting go of the internal despair
Holding onto God as my savior
Knowing that He is and will always be there!
Even when my fear or spiritual, emotional dysmorphia
Tells me, that He just might not be there
I stand tall and strongly believe
And ‘my belief’ has made me a better man
A man who can roam this earth land
Proclaim Christ’s name
To the heights of fame without the fear of shame
Or the fear that society may think his name is lame
I now know with full confidence
That I hold onto “my life’s†reign
And control the temperament of the clouds dropping rain
I control the level and degree of my pain
For
What I ignore
I let go and do not keep in store
For then, what only remains
Are the joys secreted from the pain!
The sun that which shines after the rain
And the ability for one more day
To remain
A man that’s sane
Upon this third dimensional plane
SkTzO
