you will never understand how it feels to be let down by someone who means the most to you, you have put this person on a pedestal they wasn't even able to live up to. you have carved this persons identity into your heart just to loose them. they have left you in the deep depth of you emotions, but I am a child of god so my resurrection is destined I refuse to let my pain be a reflection of my depressions even though sometimes I feel so disconnected.. disconnected from all of the worlds expectations how am I to live up to a world that feeds off of my failures, how am I to try and be different when we are all looking up to one blue print but I Still try my hardest to be an individual. this world has let me down on numerous occasions but Iseem to get pulled back into the excitement of it. my heart soul and all of my troubles are embedded in it. its is the cause of all of my terminal but yet brings out all of my happiness. its so infectious hard not to be infatuated with it. its like an addiction because after all the times it has let me down it I still rather have it. I'm in love with the thought of this world loving me back but The truth is this world has no heart.