I wonder

It could have

It could have been me in the passanger seat with that drunk driver.

It could have been me in the back seat of my dad's stolen car and died at the age of 2.

It could have been me strung out on drugs having no where to lay my head at night.

It could have been me that left the house and never looked back at the age of 10.

It could have been me that jumped off the clift and never looked back.

It could have been me that got raped at the age of 13.

It could have been me that got pregnant at the age of 16.

It could have been me that ran the car into the ocean and did nto care.

But it was not me bacause my mother raised a young lady and not a dummy.

I wonder

I wonder will the sun ever shine again. I wonder will the stars ever get brighter. I wonder will i ever see your pretty brown face again.I wonder how it is to be with the king.I wonder will we ever have a conversation or even share a laugh agian.  I wonder will the pain ever go away. I wonder will i be able to enter in the gates with you. I wonder how it is in heaven and not in hell. I wonder how it is at the thrown of grace. I wonder how it is to have victory instead of misory. I wonder how it is to be in the atomsphere of god and not the devil. I wonder are you still proud of me like you were while you were with me. But there will never be a last time i think and miss you.