Have you ever tried to be something you are not. Have you ever had a feeling of wanting to belong that you sacrificed so many things and in life pushed yourself so far back...
That you have to play catch up.
And I have to say play because you are jsut going through the motions of everything you should have done to be in a place you should already have been.
You break so many bonds that were never meant to be blended. You were in places you should have never been. You should have been somewhere else and you know this.
You cant insprire inspiration. You were always in a category of your own and you went and press the one button on your lifes console that you should not have pushed - "blend mode"