lost
Lost myself...
Looking for happiness in someone else...
And now im at a point of confusion....
Questioning, why? Where? and When did i go wrong????
Ive stumble along the wrong path somewhere along the way...And now im so far gone..i cant even i find my way..... Trust i placed in people have back fired on me... And just when i thought they will never leave...they left me..... So what do i do???? Where do i go???? Fear that i will forever be stranded.... And deep down inside im hurt and i cant stand....Wish i can go back and do it all over again...But to be honest i don't even know where to begin..... |
Nobody
Nobody
Thats exactly what I have
Nothing
Is exactly how i feel
Sometimes you can give so much and have nothing left
The very one you ones you stuck by, has left
And now you are I alone
The confusion when reality hits that at the end of the day all you have is you
|
How ??????????????????????
Hurt is something no one every wants to get use
But I feel sometimes we are forces to accept pain, accept the hurt life throws us
Fear that no matter what you may go into, there a strong possiblity things just may not go the way it should
Some people allow you to place so much trust and faith in them , just to see all youve put in to it come crashing down right before your eyes
How do you deal
How do you stop the tears
How do you cope with the pain
How do you get over
Missing how you were before your first heartbreak
Realizing you have lost sight of yourself
Just to question yourself "WHO AM I"
Wheres my strength, Wheres my faith
Ive lost it all, trying to get something from someone else that I can give myself
Tired of starting over, thinking of all the failed attempts
Where to begin, when you are still damaged and hurting from... |
Get Over You
You every just sit and wonder, "How can I start over"
Where do I began
How do I forget what I am going through, been through, simply how can i get through
Not really asking for much, just to be happy
But it's crazy, as the days go by my mind falls on him, then through out the day, it stays on him
Wish I can go back to the time before my first heart break
Music has always been my escape, but every song reminds me of what we had, and all I can think about what I did wrong
I constantly find myself, texting, calling,,, or should I say begging
Just wish I can move on, so tired of crying, tired of wishing and waiting on something that will never happen
All I want to simply do, get over you....
|
Damaged 15'
Sometimes I feel like what I'm really looking for doesn't exist
So use to being hurt, I honestly feel like being alone is what's best, honestly what would i miss
So mentally damaged, that my expectations are always bad
Ive been told that I love to hard, I think too much, and I'm over protective
In my opinion, alot of people fear "REAL"
I've put my heart through so much bull, that now I feel like its completely damaged
I'm DAMAGED
Ive allow so many people to bring me to that point, just to let me go
Failing to realize the pain of loving someone for them not to love you in return
Giving your all, better yet your last just to see this person happy
And despite all you do and have done, it never seems to be enough
Accepting their lies, yet you know the truth
Realizing that you will never be there only one
Feeling incomplete... |
My Letter to Mr.Coleman...
Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Basically all I can say
No word can describe more of how I feel than BROKEN. Yea once again fooled. Thinking I shouldve known better, but why fault me for wanting to give love a try...AGAIN....Foolish me shouldve known better, as I can recall youve done this too me before, but after a lengthy apology I thought maybe things will be different for sure...Seeing you and your girl together, of course makes me feel some type of way... but its crazy because from you via text I get these fonyI LOVE YOU every other day....So to prevent anymore damage, rather destruction in my life... until futher notice I deleted you....Farewell, and I hope you and her have a nice life |
Just A Thought *12/15/14
Forgetting to me isnt easy. The thought that someone hurt you or damaged your heart in some type of way tends to play over and over in my head. Living with the fear of being hurt, tends to damage a person mentally. Understanding that everyday will not always be happy, yet taking the bad making the best of it. But the thought of being happy, that thought of having peace. Will forever be on mind, until the pain cease, and I actually find peace.... |
Pissed Mode (12/8/2014)
It took me a whole year to realize what was really going on
Best believe lust can blind you, better yet suppose to be love can damage you for life
I found myself give, providing, sharing, caring, treating, catering, and pleasing, yet wasn't getting a thing in return
At the moment, hell I was so deep, I thought i was in love, but wasn't
I dont know and honestly till this day, I feel like a fool, I still find myself wanting to please, my heart takes over me, then I began to overdue
Realizing this mother ***er would give me a thang if i got down to my last, but it's crazy as soon as I get back up, I'm back at it again
Pleasing and Helping, like a damn Superman
I feel so ***ing stupid, yeah I've played a fool over and over again
But in life sometime you have to have to hit rock bottom to see who will really stick around till the end
"Your not making the moves I wann... |
Reflection
It's crazy, when I look in the mirror, I see so much pain,I see struggle, I see confusion.... I see defeat, yet I see a fighter....when I look in the mirror I see every ***ing scar , I see puffy eyes from crying all night.... I see the pain endured from trying to feel.complete..... I hate my pain, but more I hate the feelings I have....IM tired of trying to seal my heart, just to get the mother***er ripped back open...I'm ***ing tired of understanding when it's me always getting hurt, because of a confused individual.... IM tired of being misses nice, or misses I can.always depend, when in the end, I have no one, not one I can depend.... My heart has a mind of it's own, and sometimes I feel as if I was created just for major let downs, because just when I can.see the.sun, the rain pours, better yet floods down my door.... So this reflection, this unfamiliar reflection I see.... This torn reflection is me, lost, IM confused,IM somewhere I don't wanna be...... |
Confusion
Being in love wit a person that's mentally confused about life and what they want, is a daily hassle
Weaken daily, emotional damaged trying to open up when they constatly throws up road blocks
The fear of being hurt again constantly plays within my mind, but scared to be alone has always been on my mind
Before we became officially I felt more from you, but now that we're official I barely get anything from you
At times I feel like your only attracted to the things I can do for you
You adore the way I make you feel, but at the same time, your still coping with your past, and has not yet fully healed
I've been commited to you even before you were mine, and now I feel like you not even ready for this type of commitment, and lately we've been wasting time
Something we can never get back
To be honestly, I think you are confused at where u wanna be And every since you admitted that your not ... |
1900
