Absent from the wisdom of awareness
She and I have been strangers
Unaware of the long rest,
Laziness and procrastination
I feel tricked
I hear the laughter
And see the stares,
Unfortunate whispers of peers
Digging myself in deep
And deeper into my dreams
Fantasies
Catering my wants more than needs
Held back
Hated
And misused
Like most of the greatest
I feel honored
My demise has been planned
And I’m alive
I strive.
-J