Here Comes The "What If's"

What If

I did get the chance to do it again

Would I be what I thought I could be

What if

I could cross out that one thing 

and replace it with another

would it make a difference one way or the other

What if

I went on to further my education

would my current job still be my present situation (did that sound right)

What if

I waited to become a mother till  AFTER  I was married

maybe then I would like my kids father  

What if

I knew then what I know now

Shoot, with him I wouldn't even bother

What if

I could be a better mother, a better wife

What if

I didn't complain so much

not having this, wanting that, not liking this nor loving that

or what if..if ...if  

(sigh) Hold up

What If

I count my blessings

be grateful I'm alive healthy and free

What if

I embrace my blessings wholeheartedly

What if

I look at my family and Thank God they are apart of me

Be happy with who I am embracing the God in me

What if

I reflect on past mistakes

only to unfold the lessons taught

Greatly appreciative of victories faught

What if

I just relax...breathe..... and there is honor now that I show

Then I could stop these questions

 for the "What If's"  now I know