I’ve been waiting too long for so long
It’s hard to scare me
Goodbye is not in my vocabulary
I’m afraid of goodbyes
Goodbyes always catch me by surprise
stuck in limbo in a place
where I don’t want to remember
where the sky is just a big hole in the ceiling
much like the hole inside me I’m feeling
trying to forget all of the faces
changing furniture around in different places
my memory can be cruel to me sometimes
If I see it outside of my window
I get up walk over and close the blinds
I tell myself in the mirror “No More Attachmentsâ€
shredding documents that meant so much to me
putting them in the trash bin of my memory
no longer do I have the need to read voices
that spoke to me in the past tense
it’s just too much evidence of my greatest fear
holding my head down I see my tears on the ground
nothing stays the same there’s always a link
missing from my chain I’m just not that strong