Thinking I sat there pondering the possibilities of what we could become
I mean I've never known a smile without strings attached
But you gave it with no effort
like a gift passed down through generations as a memento of beautiful moments held in the pit of my adolescent mind
Still I felt warmth
So warm
A slight discomfort crept in my stomach and across my skin racing along my arms
pouring sweat on top of the glow of my skin.
I've lost days in this
Stuck in this dramatic emphatic maze that left me trapped chasing the aroma of cheese
hoping the allure would lead me back to a place where we become free....
Still I couldn't forget past encounters
that were positioned and repositioned on top of counters
which lead me to the thought of our first encounter by way
Dumb is a word misused
especially after the hopiful association next to the word free
We were two crayons used to fill in the shallow lines of other's
all the while being used down before ever getting a chance to fill in... |
The brain game I forget the color of your eyes, the shape of your smile, the smell of your hair, the softness of your voice, the texture of your skin
I forgot how to be myself! How to be care free, how to live in every moment, see beauty in every sight, fall without the will to catch myself.
I forget our favorite song, the laughter catching fire as the night went on, the embrace inevitably prolonged, that feeling to always wanna pick up the phone!
I remember speechless nights, cold days, separate rooms that felt miles away, shifty attitudes piled on top of days, the stronge change that swept love away
I forgot how to stay angry, how to wanna shout, how to be selfish and not talk it out, how to keep distance, how not to figure it out, how to leave home, how to not smile for more than a while, how to share, how to always be right!, there's only one thing that I remember that's wrong...
Out of everything I forgot I just remembered it's too late because your already gone! |
Forgive me for my sins and my ends
Forgive me for my sins and my ends
Days like this
I wished
on a dollar and a dream
that I could take it all back
words said
things seen
fought the feeling of being a dead beat
rhythmless blue
is how my heart choose
The perfect winner to always lose
old habits die hard
that old news
days later I found myself asking
for help
cold as I was
I felt my heart melt
should've let her keep it
but I was selfish
wrapped in bullshyt
thinking life is unfair
And im not equipped to deal with
Weight on my mind
eased the load on my shoulders
still we made up
The condom broke
I guess thats why we f_cked up
the more you run
the more you feel stuck
A losing battle
I think we both gave up
Trapped in love
caged in lust
I could feel the rush
The haunt of her touch
Dancing with the devil
Lying with the Lord
Bibble on the dresser
Thoughts cant be egnored
Murderess concept
I can live free
... |
Proposal This joy that floods my heart with happiness
forever the marking of the moment that I will miss you
holding on to that perfect night you shared yourself with my love
the taste of success fills my soul
have I ever known a strength this deep
a passion so catered
a gift so perfectly given to me
as my days merge and our moments began
I have broken myself down and put myself back together with you
My undisputedly more than a love of a friend
I dedicate this to you
my left heart
my right hand
May forever be the marking of the moment that I will miss you and beyond then. |
Alter Indebted to the wedding over complicated confessions stir crazydirections over charged emotions imbedded in every session wirescrossed signed crossed good moments lost in bad translationsunable to forget it never quiteempathetic double edgedmeanings like your pathetic thereI said it together forever nomatter the weather its alwaysokay long as we're together...I do! |
never thought it would be me! Easy come easy go it was hard to admit I love you. more than you know To me you will always be beautiful I love you from your toes to your fingernail cuticles Love the way you let me hug you from the back and kiss you on yo neck Stress is just stress But it all melt away when we sitting in a tub and im squeezing hot water on your chest And everytime that you kiss me makes me feel everytime that you really really missed me Funny how we went from rubbing on each other to rubbing off on each other I trust you enough to not use a rubber but we not ready for that step one day I can see us with a house full living like its full house Strawberries and Belgian waffles Girl you make me smile even with my eyes closed If you seen where I've been this is short of nothing but a blessing Matter of fact while on the floor wiping up this ranch dressing I have ... |
Not to be pushy I'm only saying that your beautiful    can we just sit on the roof for a few    Star gazing as my hearts racing     We can have a stimulating conversation and hopefully down the line it can lead to relations    Patience is a virtue    I promise if you let me in    I'll never hurt you    Ill work two jobs to make sure that you never have to do What those other girls did just to live   I see you one day have my kids   You being the best part of waking up    seeing you naked next to me with no makeup      Smiling at each other at the kitchen table      Eating what you cook for us     Vacationing in the hot tropics      am I saying too much      should I stop it? |
Softened Stone I heard a song today and thought of you I had to tilt my head backto stop the tears from breaking through As it played on I remembered how in love I was. from the lyrics in the song The notes startled my heartbeat I never really thought I would get over you I felt the blue sky reflecting my mood The view of nothing for milesmade me long for you No matter how much I fight it I still belong to you The hook said everything my mind went through I wish.... I didn't....... miss you anymore! |
Optimistic Wouldn't it be better if we were stuck in those days when we would just ly on the couch and you would run your hand over my waves How you would pretend to be my sister's friend so you could spend the night then you would sneak in my bed before it got to late at night Or arguing about nothing just being in a continuous fight just to have makeup sex seven times a night Riding the bus all day to get to the good movies and falling asleep on the Bart after we eat my arm around your shoulder and your head on my chest and you slobbing all over my shirt and s*** LOL Those were the best Remember when I got my first spot? I had nothing but an twin size bed and no TV we sat in the bed like the fork and the spoon me kissing the spot behind your ear and you staring out the window at the moon Some times at night I close my eyes and picture all we been through and I'm mesmerized I still see that spoiled little girl with the rude attitude I fell i... |
Left behind I was caught by the illusion Intoxicated by the confusionSuffered a mild attractionSlip hard and lost some tractionThought I was gaining somethingbut was hit by the subtractionI lost more than just a pieceWhen I stare in the mirrorIts hard to find meI accepted the thoughtI would never find peaceAs long as you are lostThere will be no finding meOr finding light at the end of my tunnelNo need to talk or discuss my sad soundsWipe tears from my face when people are aroundWhen I lost you I lost faithWelcome to my reverseLost & Found |