Message To Self

Generationally Cursed

The more it seems like times change, the more it seems it remains the same, forcefully trying to shift direction and I don't, your saying that you will but I am knowning that you wont, not too many you will find that's quite like self, stuck gratifying disaster not wanting help, this is no self pity as I grasph the meaning of life it's shallow, or what lay in wait for me in the darkness of the shadows, not knowing what it is that I seek, and what it is when I find, I came to the conclusion the blind leads the blind, not fearing death and never assuming, I feel it in the air like SIgel lurking and looming, dooming with these sins, the generations after me, cursing my blood for eternity, but this is not the way it has to be, but I can't see no diffrent picture painted of this grimm world happily, I kno the end is near I see it coming rapidly

Live- Evil

Am I evil because I live by no bounds, my grounds, for dismissal is elemental, they confuse and misuse, all because they wanna rule, rules are meant to be broken hoping they choke on these words, hoping your brain soak up this courage, spongebob, I mobb by my lonely, I do my dirt like that too the one and only, yours truly no ones fool, so it's hard to fool me, unruly, criminally activated, could be evil depends on your honor and respect as a people, I live because of the Lord, but sometimes I follow the devil, not special and I know it, still a rebel, not believing what they feed me, they greedy, and there's no need for me, so I am a casualty caught in the web they lies spun as the spider a nighter a fighter and when it's time to spark the revoloution I hope I'll be the fire, wont expire, trying to inspire, but I am preaching to the choir, born liar, it was indoctrinated so all the heaven and hell sh*t they can save it, I will live to the best of my ability, even...

Devil- Lived

              Destructive - Enemy - Vile - Inhumane - Liar

I see you as I look in the mirror, your the face of fear it couldn't get any clearer, stranger and loved one mixed in the same, I know you and yet I  don't that is your game, torture and torment all the days long, I no longer know the differences between right and wrong, evil incarnate seems that's what I was born to be, torn between negative and positivity, everything around me influences me highly, I only find peace writing in my diary, chosen victor , frozen I tricked them, not the true definition of the word no good comes from pure evil, I try to do all good contradictory to the opinions of people, can't be an angel in a world full of devils, usually they overcome me, have to pretend so they wont over run me, this world is hell and when I pray I pray for all , everybody is devilish atleast I can admit my fall,

Ism

Universalism, this goes beyond the world, Nationalism, spread throughout the USA, Realism, in the message it convey, Directism, straight forward and to the point, Oneism, to me it just mean joint, Capitalism, capitalizing on profit or status quo, Naturalism, because it comes so, Autheticism, the essence of origin, Haterism, envy the jealous blood boiling, Conservatism, striving and sacrificing to preserve and persevere, Fundamentalism, the basics for all that's here, Rationalism, using your heart as well as your mind, Materialism, everything comes in due time, Moralism and Mannerism, upbringing on others you shine, Humanism, love for everyone of your kind on this earth, Classism, your dignity and pride shows what your worth, Streetism, it's where I got my PHD, Determinism, that's how I got my degree, Individualism, myself can't be no other, Absolutism, I am absolutely a product of my environment, Criticism, comes right from society, Pimpism, my mouth get thin...

Message To Self

Constantly I see them coming for me in my dreams the unconsciousness of my mind, they have me surrounded from every which away there's not enough time, can't tell if I am admired or hated, they have no faces so it's unstated, carrying with them what they are trying to find in me, shadowy figures I am trying hard to see, they move in silence so sure I am the one they seek, the feeling emanating off of them makes me wanna weep, surrender to them I must have hurted them deep,  drawing in on me I fell like giving up truth be told, there is no escaping and no where to go,  features are becoming clearer to me graceful , elegant, and bold, and they all are changing from young to old, as they pin me in it was obvious they didn't wanna capture me, I am looking at all my selves they showed me what comes after me,

The Game

She entraps him with the walk and sway of her hips, she has real power to empower with what's between her legs but especially what comes out of her lips, see the tongue a make your mouth say anything, to many men she just a dream, a  fantasy disguised in a scheme, her look ignites the fire, a yearning burning a deep desire, about you she enquired,  beauty captured your inspired, she will entertain all the cheap talk romantic dinners and the nice walks, in her laughter, is a woman scorned behind that smile, she know there's no happily ever after, so she will play for a while, but you was to good in bed, good d*ck plus good head, so she says goodbye to old Ed , on second thought she will keep him around if your playing games with her head, but what she don't know is he taken, he has got a wife and two kids and they just came off vacation, two more baby mamas the dramas deep and they be hating all while she waiting, and what he don't know she faking, g...

I AM Coming

I am coming not tomorrow but right away, I am coming like I am f**king the day, no condom no lubrication, putting life on lock it's in straight violation, I am coming like a train hard to be stopped, I am coming like that bullet wound not noticed until the pain is felt and that heart has dropped, I am coming like I am a promised morning, open your eyes feel that life I am coming like that yawning, I am coming like that bill in the mail at the end of the month, like your  moms rent is due and you aint got it to front, I am coming like that b**ching you gonna get from your boss for showing up late, it's your third time in two weeks and you getting fired is in debate, I am coming like your mcdonald's order, I am coming like them mexicans creeping across the border, I am coming like your pregnant girls baby and they had to induce labor, I am coming because this is what they afraid and I wont wavier,

Dark Rulers 2 continued

 After WW1 we were given the League of Nations as the solution, it failed so it evolved to retribution, conditions were created that made WW2 inevitable, with the United Nations moving us closer to a New World Order, wasn't awarable, to slaughter, they control whether  a countries is inflated ordeflated, via a Central Banking System, consider the Federal Reserve that is no more Federal than the Federal Express thats wisdom, it is a private corp, a gift given to us by the International Bankers, for the purpose of manipulating our economy and country such gansters Lee Harvey Oswald didn't kill JFK, realize how JFK wanted to get control of the National Debt and save our way, by passing the Federal Reserve Note, instead of issuing Federal Reserve Notes he began and I quote, printing debt free  United States Notes the U.S constitution states that the treasury department by right can do this, a big no no that alone could've got him killed, then f**king with the mobb seal...

Dark Rulers

Earth in it's fourth dimension, thinking with our right brain is our feminine extension, the side in all of us that is able to intuit, the ones of all life and the inside of it, whether you call them the secret government or the Illuminati, they control everything they wanna control the body, the Bilderberg Group, the Trilateral Commission, the council on foreign relation it all needs fixing, what's in a name their all interrelated, by a brotherhood of favorites, all made up of the richest people in the world, about 2000 of them they control the world, and have been controling the governmebt for a long time, Mj-12 they wanna control the mind, they operate almost totally from the left brain, extremely intelligent they show no remorse or shame, understand that the pyramid is the basic structure, secret society governments, corporations, universities, indoctrinate you to corrupt you, a very few at the top of the pyramid that knows the full story, the closer you get to the base the l...

Rendevous

I have a meeting with death, at some disputed time in my life's depth, when I will be less or more likely willing to go, in the vesting shade of the spring , the pollen and the cool breeze in the air, or in the summer heat and glow, or in the winter snow when everything is dying and death surrounds, I hope death is pleasant and don't make a sound. I have a meeting with death nothing about life or in life is fair, I will let death take me by the hand, and lead into the darkness of his land, I will close my eyes and gasp for breath, my soul will be quenched nothing else will be left, I have a date with death, somewhere in my life's depth, something my children will grow to fear, it's inevitable for all life that is here, only God knows how bitter life can be so sweet, my love will sound out in a blissful sleep, no pulse of a heartbeat no breathing breath, laying down for eternity until awakening is called in death, I have a meeting with death, somewhere in my life&#...