jnxy706

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I'm SICK

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I'm sick of being an absent father
I'm sick of them wondering why I bother
I'm sick of her being a crackhead
who wants nothing to do with her daughter
I'm sick, so emotional all I see is water
I'm sick of my fulfillment being improper
I know he takes you through hell
to get you to Heaven, but I question
when will I reach Nevaeh
when will my dues be paid up
how much longer can I fake tough
damn I hate trust
even in my self there ain't enough
all I've ever chased was lust
ain't never gave a ***
it's why I ain't that much
Jnx or Josh I'm ashamed of us
I was renamed to loose these games of luck
27 and I'm still dwelling
the same crib was at
eight years befor I was eleven
cant change here what wont let him
new oppertunities
what wont let him go get em
I'm trapped in habbits and routine
I'm carrying baggage and old dreams
when will he be seen the new me
I want it so truly
but my actions disprove me
pull me back to that addict that rules me
years now I been clashing with this bully
dont know if I can ever escape him fully
he's the olny friend
who absolutely knew me
now I've grown sick of his cruelty
he consumes me brutally
I see what I want
but his chaines allude me
she's right there before me
waiting for me
in a different world I can't adjust to
only temporarily I can bust though
it's me and her I can just cut loose
things are purified and perfect
then the moment is gone
back to blurry eyes and hurting
I'm tossed back to my relm
there he is with a shoulder and kind help

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The City

I'm from a city of bad habits, Drug addicts, Our demons run rabid, Loves is absent, Life's is tragic, Reality happens, Young thugs is acting, Fathered by them t.v. cats rappin, Rivals are clashing, Them guns is clapping, Coroner come bag em, R.I.P's in loving memories mark disappointing attractions, The authorities are slacking, But them checks still cashing, It's malpractice while them lights is flashing, The system is broken the foundation collapsing, The measures are drastic, The pressure is cracking, Sober heads relapsing, The poison is everywhere a constant distraction, Poverty in abundance happiness is rationed, The streets are taxing, When your sick money spends quick but you gotta have it, So it's grab it when and wherever to get it the fastest, Morals and dignity set aside daughters raised soiled in hoe tactics, So they grow ratchet, She hides behind glasses cuz her eyes are blackened, He loves her but he beats her down, Cuz she cheats around, Loyalty is foreign she needs a...

Telephone To The Dead

It's like I got a telephone to the dead,
Cuz your just memories and a voice in my head,
So much left unmended so much damage said,
D*mn it why didn't we cuddle and hold hands instead,
I can't stand it, How the hâ‚¬ll did you land in this mess,
I keep reexamining it, how can it be,
I gotta manage another panic repressed,
I can't sleep, the regret is beginning to manifest,
I'm blowed out I need a few cans ta rest,
How can I understand it, incarcerated till death,
What was you thinking who was you trying to impress,
LIFE, that's the rest of our time left ,
Now every moment gotta be timeless,
So why do we find us,
B*t*ching like yesterday still ain't behind us,
The calls are all going wrong, the pause is just too long,
The loss was just too drawn, guess Josh is just too gone,
He watched as you just moved on,
This imposter is just too strong,
I'm lo...

Broken

Ive ate so much pain, hate and deception
Ive lost the definition to my own reflection
My whole life in question
Is this it for me or the misery before the blessin
I feel another pill obsession settin in
Life hit me with such a force
It knocked the will from my pores
Had me ill on all fours crying my pride to the floor
It numbed my eyes and my core
And my mind it dont seem right as before
My dignity and morals aint got any might anymore
Cuz lately I been losin my cool way to soon
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highs & lows (truth bout the streets)

Eneryday I pray for forgineness,
Acting in incidents,
I wouldn't want my daughter to witness,
In her eyes is innocence,
I mine is ignorance,
I don't know deliverance,
Soon as I feel I'm delivered it,
It gets filtered quick,
I've had my highs and lows,
Crispy from my head to my toes,
Nice whips on the road,
A non stop cash flow,
Hustling like it's all I know,
Treating all women like hoes,
Th...

unkown by you

Everytime she says mommy I think of you
your missing so much, shes unkown by you
she got your eyes with my eye lids
your smile and my chin
your nose with a little if mine mixed in
a shame it's all unknown by you
a temper she could have only gotten from you
she is silly, goofy, funny as you
makes the gray days sunny like you
beautiful, only matched by you
a shame it's all unknown by you
got curls, chubby sausage fingers
two functi...

I'm SICK

I'm sick of being an absent father
I'm sick of them wondering why I bother
I'm sick of her being a crackhead
who wants nothing to do with her daughter
I'm sick, so emotional all I see is water
I'm sick of my fulfillment being improper
I know he takes you through hell
to get you to Heaven, but I question
when will I reach Nevaeh
when will my dues be paid up
how much longer can I fake tough
damn I hate trust
even in my self there ain't enough

glutton for pain

Im a glutton for pain
emonionaly drained
dont know happiness
every little bit I get
is taken away
either my doing
or it just aint fait
never sticks to be held
just enough for me
to expose myself
open the window to my soul
its myfault, those
are choices I chose myself
so I dont know love
except its for the fortunate few
it literally hurts to loose...

I wanna escape

Damb what a life I'm livin
I'm trapped it's my prison
goin on 3yrs of my sentence
I feel like I spent it in one instant
the enjoyment I'm no longer gettin
it ain't fun anymore I'm addicted
I was warned but I had to be it
such a blast I believe I need it
the demonds feedin me
keepin me, for eatin
waitin on now that I'm done
and dreamin of leavin
prayin, beggin, pleadin
please help me
<...

a world with no pain

I'm growing older and goin nowhere,
I hold in a cold stare,
so afraid I'm a die alone here,
in this city that dont care
I'm so scared,
she will mature without us both there,
my nose flare,
my throat tare
cause the knot is square,
the thought if I followed it,
would have me swallowing a hollow tip,
cause the problem is,
I want to see a little girl through her father's mind
and show&...

I'm SICK

The City

Telephone To The Dead

Broken

highs & lows (truth bout the streets)

unkown by you

I'm SICK

1 wish on 1 star

glutton for pain

I wanna escape

a world with no pain

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