Struggle

Anxiety

Sometimes your mind goes faster than it should

Thoughts spread like wax on wood

If you could stop it then you would

But you can't so you act like it's all good

It's called anxiety, anxiety is what they call it

But something else drives it

Something like trauma or pain

Things of life impacted in your brain

Things that you cannot go back and change

Because they happened to you or someone you loved

They weren't intercepted by the man above

No intervention here just left in disdain

Left with the results of the pain

Out of control like fire and water

Like a bird on a ledge ready to fly

Anxiety has your wings and wants you to die

Up all night, mind's racing again

*** you Anxiety! I can't let you win!

Sad Faces

Sad faces sad faces sad faces

 They are killing in the dark and light places

She lost her son and he lost a daughter

Human dreams and goals being slaughtered

Everyone chanting put the guns down

But the killer in his heart loves the sound

Internet trolls love the drama and crying mamas

Waiting to type their delight about the black man's plight

Send your child to school and raise him right

Yet everyday he has to fight the devil to write

His story to get his glory while his knowledge is pouring

With a fresh outfit on and Jordans

Innocence killed due to a deal with a devil

On another level bringing him down

Twisting his crown

Wanting others to frown because he's a clown

Spitting up the past and tearing down futures

Sad faces sad faces sad faces

When will the cycle end

We all know the devil and God will...

Fears For You

Tears for you fall while you're asleep

 Fears for you come when you and the world meet

My child, the love I have runs so deep

As you grow older, the less I sleep

I want you to run and never fall

When faced with trouble stand tall 

 I've got fears for you that you won't understand

Maybe one day when you become a man

I've got fears for you, that someone will take your kindness for weakness

Fears that someone might take your life for your sneakers or your skittles or the way you dribble

Whatever the reason, I hope it's never your season

To die in these streets because they don't understand you

How you do the things you do

Or how your smile lights the room

Or how your little brother runs to you

Loving you like I do

I just want you to know I got fears for you

When you leave the house

Not a care ...

Natural Woman

Natural Woman

Hey young men have you heard?

About the natural woman on the block

Her hips go side to side like a clock’s tick tock

Her hair swooped up black like charcoal

Butt round and lips on swole

Matters not if she has children

Her berry’s sweet just like it has been

Her mental is deep dare if you try

Try to persuade her or be sly

A Natural woman’s on the block

And she will look you in the eye

As you stare down and up her statue

Deep in the ocean will go your mind

As the natural woman walks by

Her beauty so loud it makes a sound

Swish Swop Tick Tock

A natural woman’s on the block

God, do you hear me?

God, do you hear me?

Are you listening too?

Sometimes when I talk to you

I feel like a fool

Asking for forgiveness

Time and time again

Making the same mistakes

Acting out the same sins

I know you love me

More than I love you

Yet you still stay

And do the things you do

I promise Heavenly Father

I will get this life right

I will be just like you want me

An Angel taking flight

God, do you hear me?

I know I’m on your time

I try to be patient

Not complain or whine

I am your child

Made in the image of you

Yet I sometimes struggle

To give the praises you’re due

Your love is the best love

It’s time that I see

Only your love will come free

Love of the flesh

It’s just too high

A br...

Heat

The heat from our love

Radiates like the sun

I am with you and you’re with me

We are each other’s only one

Sweat on our backs like dribbles

Love so good it’s crippling

I can’t move and neither can you

Keep it right there

Let it simmer

Pen and Paper

When I write I am free

Through the eyes of my pen I see

A vision with beauty no blemishes

Some may call my style feminist

All is well with the world

My content as rich as some pearls

With these words I am stalking

An open book that keeps talking

My mental spilling out on this paper

No time to rap see you later

It’s just me and my pen

Over and over again

We’ve got our own conversation

Like lovers having relations

This pen and paper is serious

On the verge of mysterious

How my words just be killing

Expressing how I am feeling

Sometimes I start writing

Words come out fighting

In this life full of sin

I’m sure to win with my pen

Scoring big with my thoughts

I refuse to take a loss

Like a crook on a caper

It’s me my...

Looking Through a Child's Eyes

Looking through a child’s eyes

The need to be loved and envied

Hungry for knowledge like college

Eager to feed the why's within me

Through life I speed never knowing

What passes me and what I pass

Going too fast to see the blades in the grass

Not paying attention and I end up on my ass

Again and again and again

But I get up stronger

Hope to stand up a little longer

Because I know the evil that awaits me

If I slip and fall whether small or tall

It still hurts the same....

Looking through a child’s eyes

Eager to make a mark on the world

So my name can be remembered

More than for the fact that I was born in December

Maybe because I helped the one who helped me…

When life was low for me or them

Even if it be foe or friend

Struggle

Life as a single mother is a hell of a struggle

I learned from my mother so many things to juggle

She learned it from hers too but what can I do

Keep movin and grindin as time keeps on windin

Trying to live a decent life even though money is tight

Makin moves for my sons because I’m their only one

Daddy’s gone he’s already left home to find his own

I eat less sleep less and dress less til death

Taking care of mine so they can have more than I

Love on my heart pain in my brain trying to refrain

From giving up because it’s so tough and rough

Sometimes I feel I’ve just had enough

Of this life I live not much more to give

Trying to find my grove by going back to school

Can’t sit back and wait on life’s time to move

Our day is coming God’s on our side

My boys will sit back and enj...