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Your law, I have been desecrating
I can feel my spirit hyperventilating
All the while you are trying to be congregating
I am segregating and hating while emotionally debating
About things that have no true substance
Fight against self is the worst of any kind
One day filled with light & sight
The next day blind
Blind
Intellectually and psychologically
Confined to a negative state of mind
I’ve been trying and praying
But I feel your presence is delaying
The blessings are delayed or denied
I have let go of my pride
Nearly died
More than thrice
Became a man amongst mice
Grew younger in tempo
While I aged in flesh
My stress has caused such deep vexation and distress of this flesh
That I can feel the palpitations of my heart deep in my chest
Never the less
I only seek true spiritual and possibly even metaphysical progress
For you are divine
Always in my mind helping me write the next rhyme
Even when the line or rhyme is not clearly defined to be sublime
You remain in my brain
I choose to maintain
Need you to help me sustain
For I am perplexed
Beyond comprehension
Filled with the possibility of soulful detention
My artistic contention
Has led me to much depression
Fill me with conviction
For I prophecy against myself as I can see my own future prediction
Using grammar to properly articulate my mental diction
Pain seems to be my addiction
Causing me schizophrenic, pathetic and highly detrimental friction
Even but a fraction of peace is what I seek
I ask you to fill me with grace abundantly
For Satan is cunningly cunning see
Trying to be singing and humming
While he is amazingly visually stunning to me
Release the better side
Bring out the light side
Destroy the dark side
Of this force
That works feverishly to throw me off course
Of course
I know that I will eventually reap what for so long I did sow
Tiny drips of eater are hat have fallen
Please Lord, stop your stalling
I know your delays are not necessarily your denials
But my whole life has been one cosmic trial
Satan venomously poisoned me with his fangs of grotesque demonic bile
Trying to usher in me his thinking style
For the war of the mind is merely the edge of death
For he seeks to destroy my perspective to cause me my own death
Slowly attacking my spiritual immunity
To take away my ability to breathe in your divine breath
Taking it away from me slowly, until of me, there is nothing left!
Please I am on my knees pleading
Bleeding
Of your divine power and peace of mind I am needing
Your spirit for too long I have grieved and recently been grieving
The devil has thwarted my vision with precision
And has led me to believing the lies of his deceiving
His deception
Since the very essence of his first inception
The special reception of angelic beings
Your law is decreeing
That only through Christ Jesus could I truly be freeing
Freed
No longer bleed
You are and will remain my tourniquet
And will strengthen me in the next scenario
No matter what may come next
For you will transfer my thoughts to your thoughts in this earthly context
My intellectual vortex
Stimulating my lens convex
Visually concave
No longer shall I be a slave to the very human desires I crave
For you have and will continue to correct my ways until the end of days
Give me courage to be brave
In the midst of continual tribulation
You will be my encouragement and jubilation
For the valley of decision has come and gone
This war is already won
You have witnessed my future before my life of this earth
Prior to my physical birth
You proved Satan wrong and showed him my ultimate worth
I will sing praises for eternity in my heart
Knowing and acting out while showing
That the devil will have his corpse burned to dust
And I shall spit upon the dirt and make a ball of clay and burn it in the furnace of your fury
For you are God and you do hear me
You love me and come near me
I am lifted
Truly gifted with your love and divinity
Your greatness shown in the awesome trinity
Triune beauty
The devil could no longer fool me
For my enemies are now my footstool
Because I am one with Christ and He with you father
So there will soon come the time
Where my human nature will change
No longer will I feel out of place or estranged
And I will be abundantly blessed
No more tears
No more stress
No more pain or strain
No more uncontrollable thoughts of disdain in my brain!
You are God
My shield
My armor
You will provide for my wife and my daughter will also be loved and protected
And Satan will not be able to harm her
But your love and peace of divine goodness will charm her
She will grow in your love and grace
And we shall enter into your presence one day soon
And be able to see the love of our father
As we stare deeply and with intent in your perfect face of grace!
