My preoccupation is my current situation
A circumstance that has remained for 4 years plus
Anger and resentment was a must
I learned to have distrust
My spirit got brown with rust
I would erratically get angered & cuss
I was so heavily filled with anger & vehement lust!
I’m so enraged with my current emotional stage
My physical, slightly whimsical lyrical phase
Please God hurry and turn this horrific circumstantial page
So I will no longer be a child of rage but a young sage
I need your food for thought
Grant me power to over look the fights I lost when ‘I’ fought
For now I know I must let you fight my battles
I can hear the sounds of Lucifer’s serpentine rattle
For the beast is upon the whore dressed in scarlet with a feverish angry tone
We listen to her groan and moan
An orgy of hate and crowning the sadistic, highly polytheistic child of Apollyon
For Abbaddon is now coming while shunning during the time the sun is darkened
For God has already woefully harkened
I know I must take heed
Take your iron reed
Help me cross this devilish sea of demonic greed as I cry and plead
All the while my spirit does bleed
And ask to understand your mind and the laws you decreed
I am so preoccupied with the old me that died
The one that defied and your death he denied
Satan for so long took his time to lie
Made me more than nearly cry when I nearly died
My brain is fried
I know that you know how hard I’ve tried
But my ways or effort are not even sufficient
Only by your grace can any of my effort & labor be fruitful and efficient!
You tell me to give you my totality
And I try to do so
And yet I keep falling into sin due to my confused intellectuality
Lord, take away any sin that I may have without even knowing
Maybe show me the things I need to see without showing
I need your grace to abound in my heart and mind so that my essence could be glowing
Be like the river of love in my life and continue your flowing
Especially due to the fact that you are omnipotent and all knowing!
SkTzO