My paintbrush is ready
Ready to use colors and lines that are forbidden to go over
But the lines in this painting will be ignored
Because the best paintings don't have boundaries
I'll put my insecurities on a canvas first
Cause as a child I was never really accepted
Nobody liked me or so I thought and if they did their thoughts were deceptive
Wanting to love somebody so bad
Maybe I was just trying to replace some of the things I felt I was entitled to but never had
Strokes of blue for all the tears I've cried
But still nothings been able to dry up the tears from when my father died
Blues for the love of the ocean I've had since a kid growing up close to that long beach
Cause the sound of the waves coming ashore and the sight of water swaying different directions always kept me at a place of peace
Splatters of red for the anger I've kept inside
These angers I can't seem to hide nor get rid of no matter how far I fly
These angers that no punching bag can take at a consistent pace
And is the only thing constantly keeping me in this race
Pinks for the loves that have come, the loves that were lost and the loves that got away. There's a few of those
But the thought of where I would be without those love is something only God knows
I'd put yellow on the canvas for the things I've let hold me back due to being scared
Cause if I had ignored those things and went along with the things I was scared to do then many more good and bad moments would be shared
Lastly, gold. Even though it's probably not a color you can put on a paintbrush but it's only necessary for this story to unfold
Because in life we all have golden moments with golden people at golden times
Whether it's hanging out with your father and brother cause those events can never happen again unless you rewind
Or going to wrestling events with your mother after she tried hard to get those tickets you could enjoy yourself and be nervous in line
Or you as an adult sharing your poetry on a great site so people can live and see your life through your rhymes
This paintbrush..........will do more than create art
Cause with every stroke, with every detail it'll reveal your heart. Peace.