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I have everything that I have ever wanted…
Someone to turn to in my time of need…to tell me that they love me
That can see me beyond me.
A family that care, not always there but they are mine.
A job, yet no career…it supplies my every need…
You came unexpectedly
Touched my heart…my soul weeps in ways that mind cannot possibly understand.
How can your touch linger so long without the reoccurrence?
You listened and you understood..
That type of love I thought I had.
Was it me that you seen?
Or was it just a game that I played?
I don’t understand what made me do what I did.
I cannot grasp the reason beyond the yearning for your attention
If we crossed paths again could I bring myself to walk away?....
If I could cry I would.
Release is all I need…it is the only thing that is understood.
You touched me…and gave me a glimpse of a love that I can never have.
A hit of an addiction
Which could possibly take me out.
I am hooked, I am bound, I am happy, I am proud, I am wanting, I am needing, I am wanting, I am praying, I am something…
You are something…amazing
So what now?
Was this the outcome that you wanted?
I am tripping over my words…as I count my little coins
Planning out my course as I try to come up with the right words
That I can say…or may say…or could say if we were to ever say “hey…”
Once again my heart just slipped.
My skin just crawled…my legs just got weak again…
So what now?
Is it me that you are thinking about that moment of quality time that connection that we had for just a second…that moment I thought that you could possibly be mine.
Can another take my place?
Will someone else fill my shoes?
I don’t see how…tell me.
Explain your purpose your reasoning your wanting your needs for this reality
This…. right now.
I don’t understand
Loving you is wrong; yet forgetting you is a crime.
I don’t know what to do.
Would it be best if I just pushed you to the back of my head and run to you whenever I feel as though I am not receiving the best.
And imagine that touch of your hands upon mine and that look in your eyes as I imagine a life outside of my own, please god forgive me for I have done wrong and this life that I live seems so right but so very wrong.
So what now?
What do I do?
How do I feel?
Can you answer these questions in just a matter of seconds??
Do you fall to your knees and ask the lord to receive someone that you don’t know but do know yet don’t understand but clearly see more than what you are able to comprehend?
Did you see me?
When we spoke…when our eyes caught each other and the world around us seemed to disappear.
When we roamed the waters under the Caribbean sun.
Did you see me?
And if so…come find me.
