God Help Me

God Help Me

God help me to be strong

God help me to have the courage to forgive

not be so angry and resentful

I want to be a role model for my son

but how can I be that with so much anger in my heart

it use to be love but he did me wrong

now im a bitter black women

I'm trying not to be but the pain is so overwhelming

I cry at night and fall asleep just to wake up to the same sadness

god help me to be strong to not show him my emotions to not be so weak

help me to not care and just do me and just love you first

God help me to see beauty in the world again and meet someone who is like me

God help me all around on the inside and out spiritually and mentally

I need your help

What Your Eyes Say

As I stare into your eyes I see the hurt of not having your father around the hurt of him not being there like you always wanted him to be, the hurt of you wanting his love. 

As I stare into your eyes I see the anger from the people in your life treating you wrong the anger from the people mistreating you. 

As I stare into your eyes I want to change your world and give you something to look forward too.
I want to hold you and tell you everything's going to be OK.

As I stare into your eyes I feel sorry for you, another angry black man that feels like the world has failed him and the people he loved has betrayed him.

As I stare into your eyes I know that with a strong women on your side things will get better cause i want let you down or fail you.