Look you came and left, you lost all my respect. I didn't care that you weren't always there, you are my father, but now that feeling will never resurrect. You just stop communicating, so now I spit in your face, what did you expect. Out of me and my sister, I believed in you the most, but now i'm not sure if you live on the same coast. Used to tell my friends "my dad is coolest" but now I don't even boast. Hear your back with my step mom, wish you two the most of luck.All I showed was my love, but it feels like you slammed me at full speed with a truck. When I was younger I was bullied, had to hide and duck. Where you there? Did you even give a ***? Now I'm not angry at you just disappointed. Lost my trust, now you got to gain it back. After this year, I move far a way, pretty soon I going to start to pack. Your a smart man, but there's a lot of things you lack. Here's a list, its a long one so just relax.
Left in this world with no fatherly figure.
Made me feel like I was no one, had me ready to pull the trigger.
Wasn't there when kicked to ground.
you were hardly around.
Made me feel as if I was going to drown.
Made it so I always have a frown.
You didn't want to be in my life.
Metaphorically pierced my heart with a knife.
What you did just aint right.
Better listen to me tonight.
Was ready to commit illegal acts to get your attention.
Would you visit me in juvenile detention?
Was always thinking suicide was the answer.
Then I had my friend die of cancer.
Back in 08, lost my uncle Richard to a bullet.
I needed help after that and you knew it.
He was only 17, few months more he would have been eighteen.
You were out smoking nicotine.
Love you dad and that will never change.
Get your life in order its time to rearrange.
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Letter To My Father
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