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The Best Mistake

I jumped headfirst into this situation with very little faith.

Carried hurt in my front left pocket and my wallet in my right.

If I had known what I was going to encounter, I probably would have still walked into the situation blindly.

There were no signs, just symptoms writings with no stories to tell a tale that had an ending that could not be deciphered.

This is the reason why I could not recognize love.

I gave you no room to plant your seeds.

Made up my mind that you too would build me up high enough just so you could let me fall.

You proved to me that with just one rock my glass house could fall.

Provided me with a broom so I could sweep the broken pieces off to the side.

Prove to me that love is really on our side.

And I will try my best not to cry…I promise not to cry.

I have never been good at keeping my promises.

So of course, my tears will fall ...

Doorsteps

Let me not assume as though I know the person that you are now.

That the love that we once shared still burned in the furnace that reside within the heart that I once called mine.

Has the cup that we used to drank from finally run dry?

Are there no more sequels to this story that we had been writing throughout time?

Or have you found someone else that has offered you more then what I have been able to provide?

There was a time when I was enough,

We would look down upon the earth and reminisce about the lives that we once lived.

Placed bets on who would find who first, as we intercourse under the galaxies…

Making two into one.

I had no doubts that we would not reconnect,

Little did you know I was counting down the days, months, and years until we crossed paths.

Sit...

The Only Thing I Need

If you discover that I am wrong

Educate me

Provide me with the tools that I may need to be a better man

Converse with me instead of talking at me 

I have spent my entire life disagreeing, at this stage all I need is stimulation 

Because in the end the only thing that I need is my wings

Without you I am far less of a being, 

My exterior may seem tuff but in all honesty my heart still bleeds

These tears still flow, even though you may have never seen them 

Thoughts still cross my mind and so I continue to pray that you will be on the other end of this phone

Words don’t seem all that heavy when you don’t have a reason to speak them

So whenever we converse I try to saver those moments 

I try to understand…I try to be present 

Because the day that you trust me enough to give me your heart

I will tru...

There I Go

I know you will never love me

It is written all over your face, your eyes…even the words that resides between the lines that circulate within the inside of your jaws

Yet here you are, there you go

I write these letters as reminders to myself 

Reminders of when I thought and knew something was there 

That at some point a spark was there but was too premature to flare up

How stupid was I to believe that, that caged bird was really trapped

When in actuality it was too afraid to take flight 

I wish that I could make this sh*t up

I wish that our paths were not intertwined with one another

That every time I thought the thought that my heart would just simply deny…deny 

These are the things that I could never say

Words that had no real meaning back then 

Yet undefined feelings that should not have been able to bare fruit...

My Queen

I need to love you just as much as I love the skin that you are in

Kiss your skin as if I were the one who blessed you with the melanin that resides within it

Be purified by the words that escapes from your mouth whenever you say my name 

Comfort the tears that are released from your heart and cater to the mind that is comfortably sitting behind your eyes

I guess what I am trying to say is that I need to love you from a molecular level

I want to embrace every part of you 

Examine the woman that you are and excel in all of your teachings 

Understand the lessons that you offer and learn to respect the woman that you are becoming

Maybe if I do this I will become the man that I am needing to be 

I will be humbled in more ways then one 

Learn that there are far more pieces to this puzzle and you are the one who possess them

And although it may seem as ...

Anchored

I love you to a point to where it hurts to breath at times

Knowing how crazy this sounds keeps me from allowing those words from escaping from out of my mouth

Maybe it is my fear of giving you leverage…or allowing you to see how much I care now

Maybe it is because of pride?…or just fear that is keeping me so silent?

I feel too much like a sinner so I steer clear of the alter

Whenever we argue I fight harder because my tears tend to burn depending on the circumstances

Your lack of presence cripples me, 

The fear of not being able to answer the simple question of “What do I do now?” 

Sends my heart into a confused state that I have not been able to escape from

Although I am well aware of your location

I wait for you to com...

Closed Chapter

I knew nothing about a broken heart until I met you

The unnatural feel of rolling over and no longer finding you here haunts me to my core.

Its scary to know that the one that you once loved no longer wants you apart of their world anymore 

Asking myself what, how and why did this come about?

As I repeatedly watched us fall apart on repeat in my mind

For a while I thought that maybe if I were to pick up more pieces I could repair the broken

I guess being foolish was my charm..and also my flaw

I did it all, yet found that doing it all only ends with heartache and pain.

Knowing this from the beginning only prevents me from pointing fingers and saying that you are to blame.

I felt dead inside, my blood ran cold as my heart hardened.

The resentment was so real

My refusal to speak your name did nothing but confirm my pain

I cried as I retold the story of our gre...

No Title

I was in love once

It over took me

Surrounded me, held me

Tighter then I have ever been held before

Two heartbeats…just two

Entwined in a vine of possibilities, lying under rays of hopes and dreams

Paths that were able to be…anything that they wanted to be.

Now when I look into the mirror…the only thing I see is a shadow of you

Your touch no longer lingers on my cheek.

Your heartbeat is so faint; it is as if it was never here

Your laugh…so distant I find myself straining to listen for it.

Love

I thought you had me

In my mind I felt that we understood one another

That there was nothing that I could tell you that you would not be capable of understanding

I am numb, confused by the levels of truth, fulfillment, misplaced by the balance of life

Lost in a world that only has me in it.

If I ...

Last Kiss

I felt my soul exit from my body

My body went numb…cold.

I was a lifeless vessel.

No worth, no meaning… not even a purpose.

Priceless

The meaning of your kiss means so much more then the air that I breathe.

My soul yearns for every part of you like the burning flames over a dry plane.

Wanting to be engulfed in your flames so I can feel restored, renewed…

Overwhelmed with your touch.

The carving of your embrace upon the sides of my face as our lips lock in what seems like an eternal kiss of fate

I hold back my tear’s as my senses try its best to hold me back.

Where is my sanity when I need it?

I am unable to feel anything at this point.

Where is my leverage, my cut off point?

That point where my heart is supposed to restart and I am able to recover from this kiss.

It never happens

It never ends…

I close my eyes and r...

Replaced

You should be here

Laying beside me

Listening to my heart beat

Matching my breaths 

Dreaming of what’s to come

Goals and aspirations, all of the things people dream of

Everything everyone prays for

But you are not here

Your spot has been filled

Your voice no longer echoes inside of my ears

Even your touch seems foreign to my bare skin

We walked hand and hand towards unknown places

Casted down enemies, wanna be’s, perpetrators

Anyone who wanted to see us fail

Laid wasted at our feet

Kissing the ground that we walked

Where ever you go I shall surely follow

Those were the words that you said to me

That was your promise

Your truth to me

I believed you

I bathed in your words, and your beliefs

Turned away from false pretense just so I could make sure th...