I Wonder

Black America

To all white people who might read this. 

Im not completely filled with hatred so dont think that when you read this. 

One the other hand, I dont care about the emotions you'll feel when you see this. 

Welcome to Black America. 

Where white children get gunned down in the street. 

Where after 400 years of opression, the opressor now bows at black feet. 

Where little Bennett gets killed for whistling at the black woman he passes

That's what happens when you stare and whistle at black asses. 

Don't let us catch you walking down our blocks. 

See in black america, the crips and bloods no longer beef so either one will knock you out your socks.

Our plan is to enslave you if you don't wanna follow rules. 

We run the tv, all media, we even excluded you out in the history books at schools. 

But here's...

The Plan

The plan was in action before we could stop it. 

You have the black community, add red and blue rags

While subtracting black fathers, and multiply the laws and law enforcement. 

And eventually, the people will divide. 

And when the red and blue didnt work, they used religion

Now we beefin cause the brother next to me is Muslim and im a Christian. 

And if it aint that, its Kemetisism vs Hebrew Israelites

Instead of just realizing we both black and the mission is to find the light. 

In each other. 

We'll kill our brother all because he says cuh or blood. 

They over in the middle east fighting over Christian and Muslim when they all shared the same mud. 

And its all apart of the plan. 

And don't let a brother from the hood get money

Cause it starts off being about the people, but then t...

Goodbye

I stood on the porch as he walked away. 

With tears rolling down my eyes, 

Pain in my heart, 

And a shaking in my knees similar to an earthquake. 

I let him down.

I tried to protect him, 

We all tried. But it was inevitable. 

They took his father away, 

They brainwashed him with religion, 

They took away the sense of freedom he had. 

Or at least thought he had. 

Saddened by the world and its vices of oppression and depression.

They took everything he had. 

And now he's leaving, 

Out the front gate and around the corner into manhood before he was ever ready. 

With nothing but what he was taught, 

And an item of who he was. 

A red Tommy Oliver turbo power ranger toy 

The one with the revolving head. <...

3 Wishes Part 3: Religion 101

I hate the fact my people are still slaves, not physically but mentally. 

By the concept of a white god who saves people of color, that is don't make sense to me. 

Im not saying its not possible but, ok real quick, let me be your professor. 

Class, is it possible for a slave to be loved by the oppressor? 

Can a race that feels that they are superior love a race whom they consider to be lesser?

These same people who castrated our ancestors, raped our ancestors, and put them in graves? 

The same people who taught us how to read with a bible as we continued to be slaves?

I just want to know the truth

Who really created us and what are our true roots?

Are we the children of Israel or the believers of a hoax?  

Did Christ have skin of bronze and hair of wool or was that just the name of our slave boat? 

The bible says God created evil, I ...

3 Wishes Part 2: Georges Decision.

I was 21 when my pops died. 

Stage 4 cancer. Colon, kidneys, lung and thyroid and there's no stage 5. 

I got a brother and a sister, im the middle of three

Sis found out last minute and its messed up but that was just how things had to be. 

Dad got in the ring with the cancer and was losing, it was a crazy scene

And at the time it was the craziest thing I had ever seen. 

Imagine Ali fighting Tyson

Except Ali is getting an a**whoopin because he already decided there wasnt a point in fighting. 

He lost his mother in 06 and that ish hurt

Then his wife in 08 to breast cancer, that was damn near worse. 

Then his bestfriend a in 2011, seems that was the last straw. 

So when the surgeon tried to make contact, dad aint answer his calls. 

My second wish, is just to have a conversation with pops

Ask him at what exact m...

3 Wishes Part 1: Johnnie's Turmoil

My little cousin Johnny, I weep for you. 

I wish I coulda been there and ran them streets for you.

Or visited more often, to give you positivity and insight

Maybe then you wouldn't be in that cell and we'd be more tight. 

See my little cousin Johnny, he grew up rough. 

My uncle left him and his moms for that street life so he had to grow up fast and tough. 

So my young ninja did whatever he felt he needed to do. 

He hustled, out on the streets and even candy in school. 

A young man from LA, growing up in Watts. 

And when he was 13, some dudes ran up in him and his mothers spot. 

She was taking a shower and my cousin was out. 

Them dudes ran in with burners, killed her then went back to the block. 

I felt for him even though we grew up on different sides of the spectrum. 

I would even go as far to say that if life was a clas...

3 Wishes....

If I had 3 wishes

I swear I wouldnt ask for money, clothes and/or b*tches

I just wanna get my cousin out of jail or at least reduce his sentence

Pay whatever the price to get him out and keep him out of prison. 

Take him too his daughter, make sure she know he's her father 

So she if she knows nothing else about him, she'll know that at least he tried his hardest. 

My second wish, I debated for a little

I just wish I could have my father back so we could conversate for a little. 

Put him up on game

Let him know sh*t aint the same

Every since you been gone, I den damn near went insane. 

I just wanna know what it takes to be a man

Let him know that throughout all the bullsh*t, he never lost a fan. 

My third wish, is to know the truth. 

I know its gonna be hard to swallow

But ...

Friendzone

Im stuck in this room

No windows, no doors that I can see, not even a broom. 

Its hot as hell and I just want to go home. 

But im stuck here, in this got damn friendzone. 

A place thats so dang hot, yet so cold

And a story way too familiar and yet so old. 

You know how it goes. 

A brotha finally finds a dope as girl that he dont have to worry about if she a hoe. 

Ask her out on a date, she says yes and you been waiting to date her

And then she says, "I think we should be friends" a few dates later

Like f*ck. Why me Lord?

I found a girl that was perfect and had a weak at the knees Lord. 

We had so much in common and things was going good

She's a really dope person, lovely to look at and even likes the same food. 

She got goals in life and a good head on her shoulders<...

Sunday

It was a sunday. 

A less than ordinary day because I couldn't watch my team play. 

So I watched other teams 

And as long as somebodies playing im satisfied but it aint exciting as it seems. 

So I pulled out my medical container and opened it to reveal something green

I broke it down into small pieces, put into my piece pipe hoping sunday would give me some redeem. 

I put the bowl to my mouth and gave the weed some flame

And at that moment my Sunday changed. 

It was no longer an ordinary day

Because after about 5 hits, I opened my eyes and a woman was kissing me wearing all black lingerie. 

Her long hair braided up and I loved that her hair wasnt short

Then I looked at her and asked "Wait, aint you suppose to be at work?"

She laughed and kept kissing me. 

She told me it felt like we hadn't seen e...

Advice

They told me not to fall in love, the ish is pointless. 

They said you gonna be burned, hurting and in the need for some ointment.  

But I didnt listen. 

I proceeded into the wilderness disguised as an oasis and kept going with my mission. 

They told me not to fall in love, dont go down that road full of misfortune and greed

Its crazy how much we want the ish that we dont need.

They said be prepared. Like a city waiting for a hurricane or tropical storm

Cause this love ish just aint the norm. 

You'll find yourself in a different place and in a different form

But I just needed to feel a love that was simple and warm

I just needed to feel a love, any kind would do

But thats what happened when I stopped listening to them and eventually found you. 

Just to find out they were telling the truth.