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I used to get so depressed, down and blue like a Smurf
How much the pain can at times truly indubitably hurt!
I got intellectually & emotionally irked
Frustrated at my reactions to external pain like a jerk
I gave myself high standards to abide by
Even when I was forced to cry
I still had some doubt and questioned why
I admittedly felt like quitting see
But God reminded me to keep strong willing
While perfectly wittingly spitting see?!
So I continued to formulate words
To gather my minds realm into coherent verses
That’s the only reason this young cat still vehemently disperses
I take the power of grey skull and use all of its curses
And like Mumm-Ra, I became the lyrical ever living
The kind of entity that is linguistically forever giving
Although I still fall short and continue some sinning
Because Christ is my mediator I continue living and will be consistently winning
Like Gargamel of the earth
I am a wizard of words
Helping to curb the urge to sin and hit the curb
I used to only write and recite lines that would psychologically disturb
Getting angered
When I self slander like a goose and the gander
Makes me wander and wonder
To try to interpret the wounds of past scars
While the world gets high off shiny rims and fast cars
I bathe in elixirs of verbiage
The carnage seen on my TV screen is quite unseemly
I sometimes wonder if those characters could see me
Because even when unseemingly I find myself seething
My teeth grinding with frustrated wrath
I’m afraid of an empty future so I get baptized in my bath
While some may mock me or laugh
I would rather be prepared for something that may not happen
Than to ignore the possibility and end up being trapped and then who would be laughing
While the government keeps its people under scrutiny and digital tracking
My mind is initiating massive mountains of meticulous matter
Afraid that the blood will shatter even to the sky
I would shake my fist to the sky
But I fear the wrath of the Almighty ‘I’
I am, is His name and quite the infinite title to have and be!
Because you can judge others as a human
But can’t judge He that dwells in eternity infinitely
Because the father that created mother earth and nature you see
Is the one and only God divine unified with His son who died for you & me
Try not to mess with the flesh
Or your life will only end up as a mess
Causing such tremendous vexation and stress
The only actual and factual spiritual progress
What God made simple for us to understand somehow man made so complex
Humanity complicated the very truths that exist to bring salvation
And because we think the plan of salvation is too simple to be true
We end up living with such hesitation
I know that when I pray He is sparingly hearing me
While the serpent the great deceiver is cunningly cunning
Forcing humanity to be in the same spot running
My days were darkened while I prayed for days to be sunning
So God gave me my weaponry of choice
Which is the versatile diversity of language in written formation
He asked me to lead His people to the promised King of Kings
Spiritual deformity
You can’t be forever ignoring me
While God loves me even though many of you, are abhorring me
Straight up hating and debating
While all I try to do is congregate and utilize our minds
But to egotistically inflate
But mentally deflate while you patiently wait
God will soon separate and then sanctify and consecrate!
SkTzO
