Longing.......

Longing.......

Longing for something real

something untainted that I can feel

Words of understanding

 and not just pointless chanting

Longing for peace that I once knew

within me

Thou it is believed that my life is not my own

My soul is damned to this earthly home

a tomb of an unclean womb

a grave not yet laid

to rest

Yet I long for more than I can imagine

soft caress and gentle passion

He who sees me and what l long to be

He blows life into my lungs so I can breathe

with his understanding I am Free

his dept of true compassion

humbles me

my eyes and my eyes only

bear the tears of hearts left lonely

scared, bruised but not broken

accepting the pain that I have chosen

What is meant to be 

will be

Yet I long for..........

 love eter...

Catch 22

You ever heard of a catch 22

Try loving someone who doesn’t love you

Try being punished for all your sins

By the only man you loved enough to let in

Constantly wondering if his love is true

Just the thought of losing him breaks your heart in 2

You’ve lied, connived and took men for a ride

Now karma says it’s your turn to swallow your pride

Anti-up cause it’s your turn to pay the piper

Now you are the boy that cried wolf

Professing your love through this cipher

No one believes you can truly love

Except for you and the man above

You tell him that your love is real

but he doesn’t want to hear it

He keeps his heart so guarded

You can’t get near it

But that doesn’t stop your soul

 from longing for his touch

just an ounce of his trust