hurt

hurt

Hurt is something I've never been able to avoid 
It always comes 
As if it waits lurking in the dark corners of hope 
Pouncing once I give in 
Once I try to open up 
I never been a real character for emotions 
It's been awhile since I've been opened up and raw 
Awhile since I'll cry and bare all emotions 
For you to understand how I feel 
It's been awhile 
For me to show weakness 
Cause I will never say I need you to be happy cause I don't 
There will always be another to take your place 
Always another man waiting for an opportunity for the current to *** up 
I won't say I'll miss you 
I just will say I'm hurt 
Beyond measures I can't even fathom to explain 
Cause I trusted you 
& it's my fault partly 
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My heart speaks a million words per beat
Wanting and craving 
That ever lifting dream
My heart desires more then your attention 
My being wants you 
Your whole soul no secrets 
It's hard to find that one individual 
That one person who will be willing to give you everything to be a thought in your mind your soul your heart
The min you open your eyes each day 
Nobody loves like I do 
Where every breath I take is for you 
Because then my existence has purpose 
To make you happy
But where is my love like that?
Why can't I find love like that 
Why am I the only one giving love like that 
I want to be the number one 
The only one 
Your main priority 
But maybe that doesn't happy in this day in age 
I'm fooling myself to think its possibly 
I love...

thank you, seriously

Thank you dear sir.

No seriously, I would like to thank you

for keeping me single for this past year

from keeping me from rebounding to another guy

when i broke up with kevin

that stupid bull ex of my past 

because without you

i wouldn't know where i would be now

no seriously thank you.

thank you for helping me stay single

and giving myself time to think things more through

to reasses my goals in life

thank you for giving me the motivation 

to push myself to lose weight 

that "if you don't like it change it" motto

came specifically from you.

thank you for telling me like it was even though

it was seriously something I really didn't want to know.

no seriously thank you.

because without the cause 

of you telling me to wait for y...