writing out my pain

The root of love is not family in some cases

I send  healing 

I do not wish you pain 
It is not who I am 
It is not my fault 
Although I took a lot a blame 
You took away possibility 
       I called sisterhood 
I guess sharing the same Dna
Is not automatic when it comes to love
Clearly there was never no respect to love 
Love does not belittle 
Love does not physically cause harm 
The role of jealous hurt person 
   Would rather inflict pain on others 
                BUT you see 
I Refuse to be the product of your pain 
Before I didn't 
I thought I could build on pain 
I stumble every time I created a structure
I Force myself thinking you changed
You proved me right 
When you approach me the same 
with...

Return

Today I mourn
For all virgins 
Whose innocence
 that where stolen 
From boys who refused 
To return back to sender 
These same boys grow into 
 A beautiful thing that carries ugly 
Outcomes Walking away as if nothing ever happened ....

Honesty in a lie

Honesty in a lie 

Truthfully there is honesty in a lie 
I honesty have to lie to 
spare your feelings 
For my selfish needs 
I'm too laid back to stand up
To give you honesty 
I'm too comfortable too laid back 
To give you stand up part of me 
I'm comfortable enough to 
Have you for my own benefits 
So I gave you a new version of an outdated version 
Of what you used to deal with 
So I turned your dreams into a reality 
To only reveal a nightmare 
I'm the same monster that appeared before 
I told you I love you like the others did before 
I told I would never hurt you  
 but I'm only  hurting you more 
I can't lie i kinda like you more than I think 
But just like you I'm broken 
I'm only hurti...

I just knew

I Just knew 

I knew this was love 
When he said 
My love for you  do not have a Expiration date 
My yesterday may not be here 
But today my heart pumps a war 
A beat content with loving you 
Your beauty is my landscape resting in my eyes 
Where the sun and moon plays 
Ping pong 
My heart is bruised for 
Always having you in my arms 
My fingers in chaos with your natural curls 
In hopes of never escaping 
Just the sight of you invade my privacy Your a beauty within itself 
Running away is not an option 
Every time I look for you 
You arrive like the sun Evens a broken man can find a piece to his heart  

The torture of love

The torture of love 

    Something that seem forever 
       Like A Pairing heartbeat 
Simply to be impaired by love 
       But now sinking in destruction 
Trying to find peace in search of
        Old Memories to keep the history alive 
                          In between time 
somewhere love bloom 
       But darkness is lured and 
Drains sunshine out of the love that 
               was once filled 
                   Somehow the kisses become makeup 
                      Smudge in a napkin 
    &nb...

You didn't discover you recreated me

You suck the love out of me 
You knew the love was there 
You handed  me the pieces that  were broken 
Then you mold it 

                                    You gave me reasons to love again 

Thieves without masks

          It may seems 
          Like you won the fight 
          What is a fight if he renege  
           You're left sweating 
           Standing alone 
grasping For air 
His kisses were your revival 
To you're broken home 
        When I mean home 
        I mean your heart 
        The  door you left open for 
Him to  care enough
To make effort to do the right things 
         Instead of the right guest 
         You got yourself a thief  
         He took your welcome 
The time you did not hesitate...

heartbroken

    Heartbroken 
            Is when you're standing On your own pieces 
           Crushing it even more 
   The more you think about it 
                You suffer more   
You pray your heart stops 
          So you do not feel no more 
So you cry 
        Til u Hesitate to breathe 
Until your wound
       poured  out what you thought was love
 Until you erase the face that abandoned your soul 
   You tried to pack away all the thinking that comes with it 
          But the hurting haunts you
    So you ask for love to 
return so it doesn't hurts you anymore ......

Self love

Self love 
  

Self love is  mornings
            In the mirror 
You may not feel pretty  
            But theirs 
Someone who knows you just as pretty 
In the afternoon 

                          
           Self love is 
Finding peace 
            When vitals are   chaos 

Self love is 
Being the bandage 
 Devouring in scars 
Knowing they would eventually heal 

                                       .......loving u  is the🔑

The heart

             Your the instrument 
    That gets played over a million times 
               
             If u listen carefully 
       The lyrics is just for you 
            
                                             The Heart