I Wont Say It.

I Wont Say It.

My heart want to tell you how much I really love you.

But my lips won't part to let the words come thru.

You’re like the after math of a tornado that touch my life,

 When I hear your name, I remember the damage done by you.

I don't know why my mind is still mad,

And my heart wants to give you an excuse.

My heart argues with my mind saying "This is what love makes me do.”

My mind says: Ask Tina, What's love have to do?"

This internal, eternal battle, of mind vs heart

I’m putting me through.

Is an emotional roller coaster

Because simply "I love you",

And saying it feels like a bad chest move.

So don’t take it personal,

I’m not being rude.

But please #ExcuseMyAttitude....

Attached with a disconnection.

Pain is just a friend I'm all too familiar with.

It's been glued to my hip as long as I can remember it.

It wakes me up in the wee hours in the middle of the night,

With my heart pounding so hard, like a passenger on his first flight.

Mom says everyday it will get easier and the pain will subside,

It’s been 3 years, 28 days, and pain still wants to ride.

God I need your blood to cover me, so this pain can pass by.

My heart is still healing from all the web of lies,

This n***a probly never thinks of me

When he lye down in his bed of lies.

I had a dream of him being with somebody else,

 I had a dream of him really loving somebody else.

Giving his body away to somebody other than me.

I'm crying because of my dream is unfolding right in front of me.

1000 Ships

The face that launched 1000 Ships.

The face I blamed in my relationships.

The face that was the reason I breathed.

The face that cause me, to lose all of me.

The face I wish I could kiss again.

The face I wish I could start all over again.

The face that could stop time in its place.

The face that time cannot erase.

That face that mother warned me of

The face that Troy loved nothing above.

The command has already been sent.

The face that launched 1000 ships.