I’ve been desperately trying to get Gods attention
Have Him come into our lives with some kind of intervention
Cause the situation has only made me have negativity retention.
Seems like He has ignored and abhorred us so offers no prevention.
Asking for assistance cause that’s what He has asked us to do.
Yet Seems like He doesn’t live up to His own words or dare to follow through.
Not knowing what to do in our situation, as it only gets worse.
I’ve done all I can in my ability but seems like we’re under a curse.
I’ve created a new resume that portrays the perfect type of candidate.
But not even that is working, so I’m beginning to feel scandalous.
Never have I allowed us to do anything that was frivolous.
And yet He has taken the source of stability and made me mischievous.
My heart has darkened as the pain is now overwhelming and creating disdain.
I’ll do what I have to do to provide for my household and not have any more pain.
For more than a year now He’s exercised His lack of love or shown any care.
‘Cause we have prayed sincerely and dearly and yet He hasn’t been found anywhere!
So the silence He’s given has made me feel ridden and betrayed to death.
We’re exhausted from the frustration so I ask him to take away my breath!
Annoyed to the point that my very existence has become null & void.
Praying & believing has only made us much more annoyed.
Been told that Gods way is to give and Satan’s way is to take.
Yet it feels like the opposite cause He already our very souls did forsake.
Took away my job, my hope, and my very desire to go on living.
Yet He demands for us to remain faithful and to continue “more†giving.
Well we’re no longer giving to Him nor shall we submit to His desired ways.
Because ever since we did so, we have only suffered many days and in so many ways!
Am I supposed to feel blessed for the time allowed
To spend alone with my wife and our growing seed?
Yet not given the opportunity to provide for my household
And be forced to comply with your every desire & creed?
We’ve given up on believing that YOU shall ever allow or give us a blessing.
Cause to be a part of your path has taught us a life learned lesson.
We now know that to be with YOU is just time spent and wasted.
‘Cause following your way, I have yet to have anything good tasted.
The food is bitter and the waters are no longer sweet.
Tired for being stressed everyday and for walking on my own two feet.
I was always taught that to be with you I would be carried through all of life’s storms.
And yet, the more I prayed the more I felt the multitude of tumultuous swarms.
Being over come with the pain that has superseded my thoughts.
I wake up everyday realizing that there are many more fights to be fought.
Acknowledging that you were there back in the days when I showed you no attention
And ever since I gave you my heart, you have created more havoc and dissension.
SkTzO