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This heart of mine was destroyed long before you were a thought in the corner of my mind. Behind my eyes were seas that I would have never let you cross. Playing into your hands like putty was never in the cards for me. Like concrete glass gave you pieces of the surface that would never be infiltrated because I had previously played into the devil’s hands. I choose to play my hand as it is dealt, my heart knew that you were never worth my precious tears because I locked them away and saved them for a man who is worthy of me and my time
The image of your surprised eyes have been etched into my mind, because I was not surprised by your actions, and I don’t hate you, I could never waste that much energy. The truth is that you were exactly what I needed at the time. A cool summer breeze with a charming energy that allowed me to lose myself in thoughts and enchantments of the soul and in you.
I had never smelled summer breezes the way that they smelled with you. And we created memories that drift through my mind and cause me to revel in the temporary relief that you brought to me from all of the pain that I was in. But that was all that you had brought, and this was not love, or a fairy tale. It was a deep infatuation poured into two confusedsouls and we enjoyed each other for the time being and kissed each other like our lips were at war and the days would never end.
We created memories.
And I will forever appreciate the temporary relief that you gave, softening the blow that a previous love had dealt so harshly to me. You kissed away tears that you sensed, but never saw. Because I couldn't be completely vulnerable to a shark so you could never fully know my weaknesses.
I want you to know that I thank you, for my escape and for you being the only thing that you could ever be; which is you. You saved me from a prison of misery. And I truly understood my worth and I no longer feared walking away from something that I know is no good for me. Because in those moments I understood love, and pain and happiness, and fear all at once. And I know now why we were destined to cross paths, and we are two souls that met by chance and perfect timing and destiny and now we have created a permanent stamp on a simple summer love.
