perfection, non existent

power

Use your power for good, I never understood /"you stay/ in a bad mood/ got an attitude/ always angry/ always enraged"/so I start filling these pages with unrelent/the torment/ that put a dent in my confidence/ it's no coincidence I stay talking / never hesitant with this sharp blade/ my tongue cuts like spades/ so I will slice the stage with dark corners of my mind until it becomes art/ THOUGHTS so exquisitely complex/simplicity becomes boring/ the tears in mind become floods/ floods became blood/ on my fist/ as I fight with no gloves/ I have no love for the demon that over takes me/ the ugliest shyt I ever seen/but she lives in me/with her stories of mistrust/ the venom she spews is deliciously disgusting/if I must/ take that monster Down/so I need to get my weight up/ when I wake up/ she's written down on paper/ where the pain is prolific/previously experienced/ Shakespearian/ so I know you feelin me/ but she continues to speak to me and I will trample her wit...

Dyck

Had too much of the wrong dyck/ mistook it it for the right dyck/ cause it felt so right dyck/that knock it out of pocket when it's still tight dyck/ had that my wife at home but I need you in my life dyck/ so good but I can't stop being trife dyck/ that lemme borrow your car but can't put no gas in that tank dyck/ that I live with my momma/ no she live with ME dyck/ that no pot or a window / the one that still sellin nicks and dimes / knew about ALL yo baby mamas and overlooking red flags dyck/ that don't go nowhere but I can't seem to leave my wife dyck/that I don't wanna claim you but I'mma tell everybody you my lady dyck/ that I love you but I'll *** all yo homegirls if we break up dyck/ after we split up no one will treat you like me dyck/ arrogant dyck/overconfident dyck/ that made em give up on men and turn em into a lesbian dyck/ the one that will *** someone else's girl but can't trust these hoes dyck/that all that glitters ain...

running.

running a race i know I won’t win/ the monster within is dying to get out/but when she gets out the pedestal will be mounted with my name/ but I can’t fall from grace/i can’t take putting those eggshells back together again. But I was meant to great/ but i feel its not my destiny its my fate/ its crazy/ this state/ I just wanna move from day to day but/that ain’t the way it aint my path/ I can easily put life on smash but I keep running/away/I’m afraid.

Rebirth

called me the walking dead/ I had no clue what it meant but my soul was spent/ used to pay the expense of fragile egos/ my spirit was their trampoline/ my esteem was their throne/ I would let them feast at the table of my freedom/ I remained enslaved/ unpaid/I paid with my life/but with my life I knew death/buried alive/ so I learned how to hold my breath/until my exhalation became pyrotechnic/ this old skin shed like snakes engulfed in flames from the belief that trouble don't last always/ from the ashes I needed to blaze my last days where scavengers fed on my flesh/and each time they celebrated what they assumed was my last/the past is where they lay in desolate coffins/the ghost of depression past doesn't get to haunt me 

perfection, non existent

Perfection the illusion/Pure intrusion of clear waters that flood my mind/ my time is wasted yet it remains elusive/I know what I’m used to/ innerbeatings from my own voice/ kicks a sister when she’s down/Perfection/doesn’t exist/but it persists like incurable infection

Song Cry

Songs in the key of life/ Unrehearsed/ Unprepared to walk on stage yet I sing these tunes anyway/ craving the taste of trial and tribulation/ignoring stage fright/the fright in stages of my life/ Could it be? It must be…..my imagination…the pages of my songbook singed in the fires of personal hell/ no sight of heaven I was trapped begging for ice water/ so I became cold/ bearing unyielding winters/ T ‘was always December/ unexpected blizzards were expected to be delivered/ how did I live in those extreme conditions?/ Compassion seemed so distant …..this mental seemed so twisted/but I needed better lines to sing a better rendition/ my premonition was accurate that my lyrics mirrored many preparing for life’s recital digging for the title of they song unsung searching for a title/ validation seeking from unfamiliar faces in unsightly places/ some call it the system/ I call it moving to the rhythm of one’s drum they run from foster parents or p...

The Truth

I prayed; meditated for a better me a better thing but this thing To be MINDFUL is just what it is Enlightenment; the destruction of untruth/ not the fight to find my couth and my manners/ but to tell the truth/ opened my eyes on the journey to find pieces of my youth shattered/ that left me mentally embattled/my sense of purpose scattered/when I closed the world out my mind opened/ the answers came/ they flowed in/ because silence became my friend

ALRIGHT

400 steps forward, 400 steps back/we're back where we started/while we built his nation on our back/I guess we deserved only 28 days/ but see I'm 365 days Black/while I'm getting the black Beaten off me/ they wanna erase me like mammy didn't raise their seeds/ We used to lose our life if We knew how to read/ but we still got life/ thinking and breathing/ but our life still don't mean / so says The Man/ and we continue to believe it/ they love our swag they love our athletic ability/ but being born black in this country seems like a disability/ a liability/ we can't appreciate our new growth/ but all we fought for was something new to grow/ all we're doing doing now is catching these hands/but can't seem to keep above ground/ seems like they had a plan and all they needed was a reason/ we only have a season/ no lifetime/ but still we RISE/above the oppressor/ they say everything gets worse before it gets better.

ALL MY LIFE I HADZ TA FIGHT...

LOYAL

UNDER THE IMPRESSION IT WAS ABOUT STAYING TRUE TO THE IDEA OF

YOU

THAT I FED INTO THE FALLACY OF ACCEPTING SO MANY IMPERFECTIONS THAT I THOUGHT IT WOULDN'T GET ANY BETTER

BUT MY LOYALTY LED ME TO BETRAY MY HEART

CAUSE I KNEW IT WAS BULL THAT I CHOSE TO BELIEVE 

INSTEAD OF STAYING TO TRUE TO WHAT I NEEDED

I GLADLY PUT ON THOSE ROSE-COLORED GLASSES AND ENJOYED THAT SMOKE IN THE MIRRORS 

THAT EVEN OUT THE STRETCH MARKS AND CELLULITE FROM OUR LOVE 

BUT CALLING IT LOVE WAS A STRETCH ALTHOUGH I KEPT INVESTING MY TIME AND ENERGY EVEN WHEN I WAS ON E 

I CONVINCED MYSELF I NEEDED YOU WHEN YOU NEEDED ME ...

MURDER

They say the tongue is deadly but MY pen is a double jagged edge sword

Like a Ginsu to human flesh enough to resuscitate on the other hand suffocate

What I believe is what I see and what I think and thoughts are things

It's the thought that kills as I spill this lethal verbiage

Phressh