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​ My innocence is taken away from me.
Life, body and soul
Feeling confused about my virginity
whether im a still a virgin or not
Closing in on the world
Not letting my family and friends in on my secrets
Thinking it's all my fault, but really is it mines!??
Feeling so depressed everyday on the inside
Trying not to show my emotions on the outside
Always thinking i'm ugly and I'm to skinny
Always hate looking at myself in the mirror as the days go by
Planning to kill myself when noone is around, but im to scared to
Even put a knife through my stomach
Scared for my life, that when I get married I wont be able to give up
Myself fully because im stuck on my past.
Having low self-esteem is the most horrible feeling you can possible
have
Wondering why I was even born
Having so many people tell me that im beautiful
Never really registered in my head
Trying to stay strong everyday but memories come to
My mind everyday
Having to speak to the person and seeing them face to face
Knowing their the one who took my innocence away is painful
My heart is scared to open up to anyone that is trying to get
Close to me
Crying everyday of my life
Wanting to runaway from my problems and everyone in
My life
Having to say I lost my virginity when I was raped
