It must be a trait in my chromosome
To tolerate the hurt continuously
Getting over it is putting me under
Bringing me down to an all time low
I guess that's why I often get high
I'm up again to hit the ground crashing
But I'm consistently coming back for more
Some say I should plead insanity
But I drown out the voices including my own
All I care about is getting along
No matter how painful the process is
Even though trying to be everyone's friend
Is transforming me into my own worst enemy
There'll be days I don't even want to witness my own reflection
That way I don't have to reflect on the shame
The lack of self esteem
For allowing my pride to get injured like it does
Over and over repeatedly
I'm aware that it's abuse but it doesn't matter
All I care about is getting along
While hating myself