Inside my Journal

You Don’t Know Me

Who do you think you are playing with me  
Threatening a woman makes you feel strong, because you know you’re weak  

  s like you only see one side of me  
I told you, you don’t want me, you don’t know me..  
Because s like you are too dumb to see past this sweet Kentucky girl swag    
You don’t the beast in me  
The beast I was raised to be  
My father, uncles, brothers and cousins didn’t just rough me up, they ***ed me up  
They taught me never get caught in a mans grasp  
They said no matter what a man has more strength  
My advantage?  
I’m smarter than you, I was taught how to handle weak s like you  
You only seeing the sweet girly girly in me that green smiling positive Kentucky country girl in me  
You...

Not Ready

Never should have entertained your bull and you never should have entertained mine

We should have never touched each other

But I know the path I choose and I accept it as mine

But you entertain women with no purpose or worth turning me off

ALMOST making me question my worth

The feeling you give when you are close to me can only be described as pure ecstasy

But you say make my choice be with a jerk or loser pick a man you don’t respect and I won’t have you or your respect

You can deal with a woman with no drive a woman that is worthless and will never enhance or add positivity to your life

You have Hos in a few area codes

What am I supposed to be?

You give me a smile I love wearing

You give me a feeling I never want to give up

But lover you are not used to working together

Your used getting your way and women giving themselves and letting yo...

SO Anti

Yes I am Anti

I am Anti pain and Anti negativity

You expect me to agree

Agree to your insane world of bull

Give in and let the negativity that pours from you in?

No I will be Anti

Anti the games Anti the names I am called because this town is not more evolved

I am Anti the holy rollers

Who say my road to hell is paved with sins

Hell, I enjoy myself

I walk in and enjoy the sins you see and think I have done and all the sinful places I have been

I am anti you and your prude ways

I am free in my skin

I enjoy my sexiness

I am Anti covering these long think thighs I know you’re Anti them because they always catch your husband’s eye

I am Anti your nose in the air

I laugh and switch a little harder and imagine slapping you into reality

My reality is I am open and sexual and enjoy my life I r...

HOOD LOVE

The heat from the fire

The smell of your skin

The smell of burning condemned houses

The hustlers on the corner

The hos walking the stroll

The corner store selling loosies

The fights in the alley

The smell of cooking...BBQ or a pot greens in the cold months a funky pot of chitterlings

These are the smells and sights in my Hood

The hate, love, fury, frustration, strength, sorrow, joy, tolerance, endurance,

All of these thing lie within

The look of disappointment in her eyes drives a brother to live a dangerous life

The look of disappointment in his eyes drives a sister to set her morals aside

The neighborhood bonds them they fight for it they live it

The family they have some supportive, some thieves, some addicts

The killings, the parties, the young girl raising babies

The beatings, the cursing

Th...

Young Girl

I sit on the porch watching you go past
We all know your looking over here
This small town has no secrets only gossiping tongues
And you wanting me is the the topic of the month
You see my brown skin all these long legs
You see the innocence and cannot wait to corrupt it
Waiting to the sun goes down when it cools off and all the young kids are laying down
You know I am alone and you take your chance sitting at the end of the street you call me over with a wave of your hand
The silly young girl I am goes to you blindly switching and walking like a model with these long legs of mine
The look in your eyes gives me some fear but it also makes me curious I want to know if its true about you
The rumors I hear
You drove me to the country down that old dirt rode
Leaned in slowly and kissed me rubbed and tickled my thigh
I never knew the inside of my thigh tickled
While thinking this thought ...

Inside my Journal

Teri  Fee 

Is the name given to me

Inside these pages I let   myself go

I show my fears

My joy

My love

My failure

This is not to be used as a tool for nosey little things

This is the bearing of my soul and all it contains 

I purge on these pages and even learn to forgive

I have even written away hate and that also lies within

This will be full at the end of my life

 I hope  loved ones left behind and read what’s inside

see all the fun,the pain, the fighting,the struggling, the loving,the fu*k**g, the sister, the daughter, the mother, the friend, all the crazy people inside of me..Teri & Shadawn & of Course Don Dadda makes more than few appearances all my observations

The crazy way I see things

In these pages thats what you will find

my soul, my humor, my honor, my morals, my life.....

Fool

DId you say what I think you said?

Yes I am sure I heard it correct

You say I am a Ho, Stuck up or tease

Well I am confused brother pick one surely I cannot be all of these things

You might see me walking my dog out with my girls or leaving church and oh yes I am sure your boy told you about how he and I flirt

So you think you are going to slide in and get you some P**sy?

By insulting me with childish names or showing me you the man?

No bruh.....

Slow it down

Come to me as a man

Give me a wink a smile and ask me on date

Men tend to forget we are women and we deserve a respectful man

So clean up the language, pull up your Damn pants talk to me with some sense show me you can be a real man

Now we can rewind and with the change in you

Instead and yelling You fine

Ask my name

try to have a converstation