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Here, i stand, troubled still,
My world inside is tumbling down
My will to resist is crumbling
My hope that no one notices, but you
As my feet touch gently down to earth
My mind sends another silent call to you,
Please listen…
I cannot do this dance alone,
Just continue in my climb to nowhere
Will you ignore me once again making feel just like a clown,
Acting out my fantasies while no one is around
Even the mimes are laughing
Almost, more than i can bear
Where now to go...
When i do not desire to abandon you, to face your greatest fears alone
It’s bringing me to tears
Struggling, even with you my dearest friend, beside me
Spinning round in circles, reeling...the feelings,
Warm and tender, almost lost
Gathering strength by increments, have i got the will?
To overcome this never ending storm
Trying, time and again to find a place where inner calm resides
As if to provide solace to shake this impending gloom,
...this empty feeling, no matter what the cost
Strong words behind the thoughts
Finding what it takes to change the outcome
Of the sum of all our past mistakes is a revealing of what it is to love
Accepting that our loss, of course is worth the cost
Of what we provide ...each other
When things come apart and no longer having you there
To patch and mend pieces of my breaking heart
It seems we mix ...and when we blend, it’s like oil and water
In our separate pools of thought
We need what it takes to make amends
Without pretending what it is we're after
Is the master of our merging fates
I’m losing you
Trying to focus myself and balance you
All the while we seem to be
Moving in two directions at one time
Will never do to accomplish what things
There are ...we need
To do
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